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Hi everyone

I signed up here a few years ago when I was first diagnosed but only posted a couple of times. Guess I wasn't ready to accept myself. Now I'm sick of pretending I'm "normal", it just means everyone has unfairly high expectations of me and doesn't make any allowances for my weird behaviour.

I'm a 25 year old woman from Yorkshire. I have a BA in English and want to be a university lecturer. I am currently doing voluntary work for the NHS but have an interview for a Medical Secretary position soon. I'm pretty obsessed with all things medical and love CSI. My true love is Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

Someone please say hi, I feel a bit weird. This is a big step for me.

I think I remember you posting on here before.

Welcome back to WP!

To WrongPlanet!! !

Hi-dee Ho, Neighborette!

Hi :) Welcome.

Welcome!

I am also from Yorkshire.

Never pretend to be anyone. When you're wondering what to do, thinking of how to act, when you feel shy... That is when you are connected with yourself the most, because you're not pretending. You're just trying to think of how to change you. So, when you do start trying to be someone else, just say what you want, when you want, regardless of consequence (to an extent, I mean people here in the States are getting arrested for that all the time, what with Obama and all xD) and you will find out rather quickly who you are. And I promise, give any relationship enough time, and people accept each other. So, while you still may or may not want to accept who you are, you will have to eventually. Afterall, who else CAN you be but yourself? It's like a marriage (to yourself, man, these comparisons and metaphors are getting weird lol), it's an "Until death do us part," thing. Sorry if you have trouble understanding that.

Welcome back to the WP community, TouchVanDerBoom. Wishing you all the best with your upcoming interview for that Medical Secretary position.

Thanks for the support and welcome I'm settling in now - both to the forum and my diagnosis.

Thanks for that, your words are very true. And don't get me wrong, I'm not ashamed of the syndrome itself. In a way I take pride in it, a lot of people with great minds are aspies. I was worried, however, about how I would be perceived by those around me. I have always been the difficult one, my parents' youngest and most complex child. In school I made a lot of waves and it didn't stop there. I've been emotionally unstable all my life and just when I was started to get compliments from my mum on how well I was doing and how I'd turned myself around I got slapped with an Aspergers diagnosis. I told my mum, who took it with a pinch of salt, and my dad just casually dismissed the idea. So I did the same. I worked harder and harder to fit in and achieve things, getting my degree, living independently, getting a job. A diagnosis seemed like it would stifle or undo all that. But now I know I can't carry on like this. Living in a world designed for neurotypicals where everyone assumes I'm just like them has been so hard and I don't want to swim upstream anymore. So I'm accepting help and I'm being true to myself - finally.

Autism has spread to The North it seems. Perhaps it's becoming an epidemic! Not from Yorkshire but I live here.