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asdmayb26
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18 Feb 2018, 5:37 pm

How do you guys accept that you have aspergers and the limitations that come along with it?



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18 Feb 2018, 5:59 pm

TBH, i just did.

After having dated for nearly 9 years, i stopped pretending to be able to find love and live like everyone else and created a way of life for myself, if i want to watch youtube videos all day, i do that. If i want to go walk a trail (which i will do this summer), i can do that. Living an alternative life almost feels better than living the life everyone else has lived over a gazillion times.

It's liberating and keeps me away from thinking of that i will die alone, probably earlier than most others because no one will be there, by my side to call an ambulance.


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18 Feb 2018, 6:13 pm

I want to be a loner for the rest of my life. I'd rather be by myself than be awkward in social situations. All I'm capable of is intellectual conversations and off beat humor and I don't wanna do that. My desire is to joke around with neurotypical guys and flirt with neurotypical girls. I was never able to do that and I finally understand why. It's too bad I didn't find out about my ASD sooner cause I would have had more time to adjust to it and accept it. Now I'm very depressed and have little motivation to do well in school cause I'm gonna be a loner so what's the point. I no longer enjoy anything and all I can do is vent, go for walks and smoke cigarettes.



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18 Feb 2018, 6:16 pm

When I first heard about aspergers, it was such a ‘no duh that’s you’ moment for me, there wasn’t any stress. I’d already learned how to handle mine through multiple life experiences.

When I was still teaching, I had a young man as a student, who had it so good. He was smart, handsome, charming, from a wealthy loving family... then, when he was twelve, he was kicked in the head by a horse. His memory was ruined, his intelligence dropped down from gifted to special, he had a giant scar on his face - his easy old life was gone forever. I thought of him when my son was first diagnosed downs, and later autistic. No one gets through life without facing limitations or challenges of some kind or another. The trick isn’t avoiding the tough times, its knowing you have the inner strength to handle them, and you can build up that inner strength.


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18 Feb 2018, 6:43 pm

asdmayb26 wrote:
It's too bad I didn't find out about my ASD sooner cause I would have had more time to adjust to it and accept it.


So? I was 37-ish when i found out. Plenty of time for you to adapt. Your life is ahead of you and far from over.

It may take a while to process, but... babysteps.


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18 Feb 2018, 6:59 pm

It was easy to accept. Overwhelming, but easy to accept.
I spent a month laughing and crying at the same time as I reflected on my life because it suddenly made sense.
The rest of the year since then has been difficult on many levels.

That's the shortest, clearest way I can say it right now.



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18 Feb 2018, 7:11 pm

asdmayb26 wrote:
I want to be a loner for the rest of my life. I'd rather be by myself than be awkward in social situations. All I'm capable of is intellectual conversations and off beat humor and I don't wanna do that. My desire is to joke around with neurotypical guys and flirt with neurotypical girls. I was never able to do that and I finally understand why. It's too bad I didn't find out about my ASD sooner cause I would have had more time to adjust to it and accept it. Now I'm very depressed and have little motivation to do well in school cause I'm gonna be a loner so what's the point. I no longer enjoy anything and all I can do is vent, go for walks and smoke cigarettes.


Can this old lady offer some hope for the future? As NTs grow older, they tend to engage in more intellectual conversations and less gossip/social competition/mindless chatter. In short, they get more interesting and approachable. I find social situations much easier now than in my twenties, and that’s sure not because of any skills gain on my part.

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18 Feb 2018, 7:20 pm

There are limitations in everyone's life. I'm just glad now all those limitations make sense. I was 63 before I learned I had ASD. I have no idea if it would have been better or worse if I had learned about it earlier. It feels like I learned it at the right time for me, if that makes sense.