scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

Page 1743 of 2210 [ 35353 posts ]  Go to page Previous  1 ... 1740, 1741, 1742, 1743, 1744, 1745, 1746 ... 2210  Next

Butterfly88
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 22 Jul 2015
Gender: Female
Posts: 19,839
Location: United States

18 May 2016, 7:33 am

YellowBanana wrote:
0

This is the highest score I've had for a long time.

Good things:
1. New flat
2. Off on holiday on Thursday for 2 weeks

Bad things:
1. Stress about moving to new flat and trying to organise everything
2. Stress at work as too busy because going on holiday
3. Stress over trying to organise a prescription for the duration of my holiday
4. Stress about going on holiday with my parents

Yes, self-harm has been prominent over the last few days. Guh.

Thinking of you and sending good vibes.

+2 again



BuyerBeware
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 28 Sep 2011
Gender: Female
Posts: 3,476
Location: PA, USA

18 May 2016, 11:50 am

-3. Foggy and lethargic from taking the anti anxiety rescue med (clonidine) the psych prescribed (instead of the one I asked for). I realize Xanax has a high abuse potential, but it left me clear-headed and not dragging (and also not high, just calm), and that's why I asked for it specifically.

But, of course, WHY would a highly educated professional listen to a mentally ill, developmentally disabled person?? Or the (as far as she knows) NT brought in to advocate (who didn't at all)??

Took it because of another argument. I got to experience what it must be like to have ADHD over the weekend. I understand why he never hears all of what I say, why he can't ever just listen, why he always has to be doing something else too. Hyperkinesis is useful for getting a lot of things done very fast, but it's a terrible feeling to not be able to gratify.

Having had that experience, I wish very much that there was a customizable autism simulator that I could make him take, or wear, or whatever, for ten days to get an understanding of my reality (instead of just dismissing it and telling me it's all unreasoned anxiety and not the consequences of compensating for autism).


_________________
"Alas, our dried voices when we whisper together are quiet and meaningless, as wind in dry grass, or rats' feet over broken glass in our dry cellar." --TS Eliot, "The Hollow Men"


Lace-Bane
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 11 Nov 2010
Age: 37
Gender: Male
Posts: 2,613
Location: florida

18 May 2016, 4:43 pm

zero: saw my psychologist today, which, continues to confuse me. i can't afford to pay her, but she keeps insisting on seeing me, free of charge, anyway. she seemed to appear unusually concerned this time though. i guess i do look well worn in the mirror, sound it in voice, and feel it in weight of the silent stillness inside of me as well. wouldn't mind disappearing into sleep, but i'm not tired... i'm never tired. feel like a wild horse trapped in a stall of a stable not even big enough to take a single step in any direction.


_________________
七転び八起き


Vania07
Emu Egg
Emu Egg

Joined: 19 May 2016
Gender: Female
Posts: 1
Location: California

19 May 2016, 1:48 am

3 because I hate E.T. :x



lennyk
Sea Gull
Sea Gull

User avatar

Joined: 12 Aug 2009
Age: 53
Gender: Male
Posts: 243

19 May 2016, 5:57 am

-2
Going nowhere fast



Kuraudo777
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 20 Sep 2015
Posts: 14,743
Location: Seventh Heaven

19 May 2016, 8:49 am

I'm a little round 0. Or maybe a 1+ since it's nearly the weekend.


_________________
Quote:
A memory is something that has to be consciously recalled, right? That's why sometimes it can be mistaken and a different thing. But it's different from a memory locked deep within your heart. Words aren't the only way to tell someone how you feel.” Tifa Lockheart, Final Fantasy VII


dcj123
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 2 Sep 2009
Gender: Male
Posts: 10,796

19 May 2016, 10:15 am

+10

Life is great,

Actually its terrible and we are all going to die quite literally but I find peace in the fact that one day we won't exist to hurt one another some day. I pray the system fails apart sooner then later cause we are all corrupt.



sly279
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 11 Dec 2013
Age: 36
Gender: Male
Posts: 16,181
Location: US

19 May 2016, 4:57 pm

-6
Wish I could just sleep forever



SonofSatoshi
Tufted Titmouse
Tufted Titmouse

User avatar

Joined: 14 Dec 2015
Age: 46
Posts: 32
Location: Houston, Texas

19 May 2016, 5:32 pm

+3 - It would be a 0 or lower but it has been raining all day which has kept me inside and always brightens (for lack of a better word) my day.



kazanscube
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 21 Sep 2015
Gender: Male
Posts: 26,180

19 May 2016, 6:13 pm

-1 hoping I get the job I've posted for as, it would be a great place to work at/for since it's nearby as well, there would be other Autistic employees there though, not in the same department but on the premises.


_________________
I'm an extremely vulnerable person. Vulnerability and emotion are very closely linked.


dcj123
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 2 Sep 2009
Gender: Male
Posts: 10,796

20 May 2016, 2:11 am

+7

Why some random number and not a five or a ten?

Because +7, that is why.



sly279
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 11 Dec 2013
Age: 36
Gender: Male
Posts: 16,181
Location: US

20 May 2016, 4:07 pm

-1
Hoping today will be better day



lennyk
Sea Gull
Sea Gull

User avatar

Joined: 12 Aug 2009
Age: 53
Gender: Male
Posts: 243

20 May 2016, 9:04 pm

-4
Downer week
Blame it on oneitis
Need to put that out of my mind



kazanscube
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 21 Sep 2015
Gender: Male
Posts: 26,180

21 May 2016, 6:53 pm

-3


_________________
I'm an extremely vulnerable person. Vulnerability and emotion are very closely linked.


sly279
Veteran
Veteran

User avatar

Joined: 11 Dec 2013
Age: 36
Gender: Male
Posts: 16,181
Location: US

22 May 2016, 3:56 am



Claradoon
Supporting Member
Supporting Member

User avatar

Joined: 23 Aug 2006
Gender: Female
Posts: 4,964
Location: Canada

22 May 2016, 12:00 pm

0. Zero. I'm numb, have no interest in anything. I get up and lie down again. I should go out but that means taking a shower with all the thousands of niggling little details that I don't care enough to do, like getting the top off the shampoo. and the toothpaste, for that matter. And then I'd have to get dressed - there's intellectual heavy lifting for you! What fits? What's clean? What matches? The sun is blasting out there, I'll need a hat and sunglasses (find same). That kind of forethought (sp?). Don't care about spelling any more either. I had gathered a few people unto myself, but then dropped them because it's more work than I can do. And this concussion - 2 wks of headache and no painkillers left. Really dizzy. And a physio who wants me to do everything standing up. Also she got me a prescription for a cadillac of a walker, big cushion for sitting, places to store my stuff etc. Insurance covers it but I gotta dispense first, which I can't. Does this sound like a pity party? Well you *asked* how I feel