Saying things during meltdowns (Serious topic)

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Hollywood_Guy
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15 Jun 2018, 1:05 am

I don't know how I can prevent myself from snapping out like this. I had a meltdown today where I was feeling overwhelmed I was talking about "obsessive" issue subjects and complained about how unfair and sick the system I exist in. The thing I'm worried about is that I told them that I wanted to harm myself. I was with a few staffs. This isn't the first time I said I wanted to harm myself during a meltdown, even though it's not regular behavior either. I hope I didn't scare anyone or have them call somebody. Luckily, one of them was the staff Ill be seeing tomorrow.

But yeah, I want to stop it before anything bad happens because in the heat of the meltdown, I end up saying out loud that I want to self-harm. :( I don't actually want to self-harm, but a lot of times I do feel so much pain emotionally, and even become existential like questioning my role and purpose in this time and place.


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15 Jun 2018, 5:41 am

If they are capable of listening, you may try to explain it wasn't serious, just really strong emotions.
Do you have your strategies to avoid meltdowns in public?


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15 Jun 2018, 9:22 am

Sounds like managing your meltdowns would be important for you. I'm not an expert in this area. But I wonder if you can learn to self-monitor and when you feel you are near the end of your rope, you can excuse yourself, go in a restroom or outdoors, and somehow settle down. Another approach may be to identify situations that have brought on a meltdown, and arrange your life so you can avoid that - for example, too much social contact, then take some completely alone time?


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