Yeah, I know, life isn't fair. And I apologize in advance for the rant. But...
It's not fair that I know a lot of people who are strange, eccentric, etc., and people love them for it, whereas I'm constantly rejected for being different. It's not fair that most people can join a group or start a class, meet people and make friends, almost effortlessly, where as all my efforts lead to rejection. It's not fair that being liked and loved comes so easily to many people, and is nearly impossible for me. It's not fair that most people have a circle of friends tell them they're lovable, and I don't have that. It's not fair that being charming and happy and outgoing comes easily to most people but is impossible for me. It's not fair that I have every desire to make friends but lack all the skills. It's not fair that most people can just be themselves and find people who love them, but that everything about myself is wrong for making friends. It's not fair that most people are out there having fun and living their lives, and I'm at home, alone, on my computer.
Like I said, I know life isn't fair and there's nothing I can do about it. But sometimes I'm just overwhelmed by all these things, basic things--friends, acceptance, happiness--that I want so badly but can't have, yet that seem to come easily to other people.