Is this the rest of my life?

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I've been diagnosed with so many disorders, including aspergers, that my life seems worthless. I'm 33, and I have no work history, no friends I can hang out with, I still live with my mom, and I just sit and vegetate all day in front of my computer and TV that I didn't pay for. I know life can be so much worse, but what's the point of being alive if I can't do anything? And I've tried, believe me I've tried everything to better myself. My mom expects to have my sister take care of me after she dies in 30 something years; great, more guilt over being unable to not be able to live on my own. Is anyone else in the same boat as me? Do I just have to get used to living this way? I know I should be happy with what I have, but I just can't accept my lot in life.

I tried doing stand up comedy and I was really bad at it but I had some good jokes. Have you tried cannabis? It helped me when I had access to it. I was able to understand math and complex ideas. It helped me lose weight too when I was crash dieting so I didn't get cravings that came with the depression of not eating as ironic as that is. I am sort of in the same boat. I have no references so it looks like I've had no jobs and I'm 25. I also love on a very limited income.

Do you have the ability to invest money in the stock market? It doesn't take a lot of money to trade options.

I feel the same way you do though. Depressed, annoyed with the neighbours above me and I have no romantic prospects. Hope I could help. Message me if you'd like to talk

I've been taking meds since I was little, and yeah, they do help a lot, but I still feel like my life's empty. I see a therapist, but he's never come up with a solution either.

I'm planning on finding somewhere for treatment, I can't live this way. Being alive hurts.

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I'm somewhat in the same boat as you, and to add, I was actually told by therapists that "this is your life and chances are it will get worse over time". On the same notion they're surprised I didn't consider suicide yet, since there's just barely and prospect for a meaningful future in that regard.

Granted, I do have a handful of friends, I have hobbies and I dare say I'm quite good with these things, yet nowhere at the point to where it's a skill I could make into something commercially viable, let alone, if I even would want to.

I've actually had job experience as well as been to college and university multiple times (and dropped out as well), so I even have the knowledge of knowing how much employment actually sucks for me.

I'm not sure how long this ride is going to last either, but as long as I can, I keep busy with hobbies, make plans and try to get something done and make something out of life. I put up goals, personal ones. Among them I've set a goal that between now and the end of 2016 (that gives me about 2 years) I actually managed to land a gig somewhere and perform live with a new musicproject I'm working on at the moment. I'm not even sure if it's going to be possible and if I'd be able to deal with all the stress that might even show up in my life in the near or distant future and how that will affect my ability to focus on personal goals.

I find a fault in the reasoning with many people who think that "success" always comes in terms of a job or education and personal goals don't carry that much weight. But in my situation I've come to the point where personal goals carry way more weight than things society cares about in general.

It's important to set a goal, to have something to aim for, which expands you in some way, however small that might be. It might be something as small as getting two minutes of aerobic exercise twice a day, or volunteering at an animal rescue centre once a month - anything that enriches you and doesn't harm others.

I'm doing a lot better guys, thanks for kind words.

I think we're pretty similar in this respect. Part of what makes it hard is we live in a very public and social time. We hear about what everyone else is doing, who they're with, what life they have, etc. It's not like the past where you might occasionally have heard about a few people... now you hear about everyone 24/7. There are times when I let myself just enjoy my interests but sooner rather than later the guilt sets in again.

Maybe we'll learn to accept ourselves more. Maybe the future has potential for new opportunities. It's hard but I try to stay optimistic for my family.

I have a very similar experience with life (even though I'm only 17). ATP my life is primarily going to school, eat, sleep, exercise sometimes, and use the internet. I have no job and therefore am making no money, I'm not part of any kind of group or organization, I'm an outcast in high school, I struggle with physical appearance (acne, ugh), I have no romantic prospects (not that I'd want that many to begin with; been in plenty of dysfunctional relationships and I just went through an awful, awful break-up with an extrovert NT), I'm seemingly angry at everything at the world, and it feels I'm just going through this road of nothing to see here. Stagnation has essentially become a way of life for me.

I just can't wait to get out of penitentiary (AKA high school) and maybe, just maybe, I can get things on track. Right now though, it's just a lost period.