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I get crap wrong I have stupid autism and it makes me make an idiot out of myself, and on top of it I got depression and anxiety and f***ing PTSD, PTSD sucks...I had the freaking worst flashback I've had a couple days ago, didn't last long but for about two or more hours after I felt very on edge had uncontrollably shaking and f***ing couldn't even form words and just felt absolutey horrible for a long time I still feel kinda burnt out from that hell.

So yeah tonight got frusterated....just a lot going on, got in an argument with my mom also earlier and she was yelling and going on and well some things she did wher ethings I know I've done and I don't want to be like her. But either way no idea where I am going with this. Got home decided to eat the mushrooms I've had, so we shall see how that goes they should kick in soon.

Well that was kinda mudane...ended up falling asleep, guess mushrooms and being tired can cause one to sleep through a good portion of the trip hmmm.

Are you okay?

Yes quite...certainly feel better than when I posted those particular mushrooms had quite a relaxing effect and my bed is comfortable so I seem to have finally slept well rather than waking up even more tired can't remember the last time I had that luxury. Just have had kind of stressful week which that horrendous PTSD flashback the other day added to it was really exhausting. Though I still stand by the bit in my OP about PTSD being a horrible disorder to have its not just the psychological effects it has but causes really annoying physical things and can contribute to various health problems as basically having that disorder means you are pretty much always too stressed, that is your default state.

Everyone seems to be more stressed out than usual, such a jolly holiday season , it probably doesn’t help to have that palpable stress around you. It sucks that you had the experiences that led to such an intense flashback, they are horrid, horrid things to have to live with. I'd imagine you know how to handle them if you have lived like this for a while, I wouldn’t wish flashbacks on my worst enemy.