Do I have to pretend?

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How old's your daughter? It's lovely that you've got a daughter.

I'm 54 (yesterday), and still have no kids.

I'm glad to have children and shouldn't complain, but sometimes still so lonely.

We went to see modern art, it was free and while I was there surrounded by what individual people had worked on to say something who don't get pressured into any mold of normality, there was some peace in my head. Now I am having to work hard to hold down the noise, but i do have the memories of people not being afraid to say with their art who they are and what they think and the memory there are those people and people here helps

Have you ever spoken to Screen Name? She reminds me of you a little bit.

Do you like Dali and Picasso? I find that to be good modern art.

If you're ever in Baltimore you should check out American Visionary Arts Museum, http://www.avam.org/

They have different exhibitions, but usually show art made of very unusual media, typically by mentally ill or non-NT individuals, though not always.

Hi Waterfall:

Yes, I like many kinds of modern art from many different sorts of artists.

Screen name is a person with about 600 posts who has three kids. She has, primarily, a speech production problem.

I think Screen_name is spelled like this. You might have type in the "_"

Hi Waterfalls,

I found her. I revived a thread from October from her so you could see her. She's in "Members Only."

I think she's busy with her family--that's why she hasn't posted recently.

It's spelled: screen_name

I wish I could say otherwise:

But this is the reality: In the "real world," perception very often IS reality.

Perception is reality, you're both right and I am too upset, to cope with the negativity that comes with being myself but if I could stop pretending that's what I crave is to just be and not have to modify everything, not for others actual comfort because I don't mind that; it's the modifying for pretending so everything can present as expected, the normal way, that's too much.

But, the alternative is worse.

When I'm stronger it's easier to look for a middle path, maybe there will be some small things for me that I can do just because. Not things that inconvenience of offend, that's not what I want. Just little things like putting my head down Or leaning back when I feel ill rather than sitting up bravely because it's expected and looks weird if I do what I want, maybe I will try to find a way and accept that it won't seem normal to other people and I hope I'm hurting no one, maybe something like that won't be too much of a drag on the normality people need.

I think you should stick to your guns, Waterfalls. You're a mother. That's credibility enough to act yourself without judgement. Just be yourself. I like you that way.