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05 Sep 2017, 10:32 pm

^ That'll do.


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05 Sep 2017, 11:22 pm

I don't know why I bother. I always get the worst outcome. Not the worst one I imagined. I could have never have imagined this. I should be scared to death but I'm so over living this cursed life I don't care anymore.


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07 Sep 2017, 4:43 pm

I'm not pissed. I'VE JUST BEEN RUNNING AROUND NONSTOP FOR AN HOUR AND A HALF. :x

I'm not pissed at all! :mrgreen:



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07 Sep 2017, 5:06 pm

I hate drawing so much, it's boring and tedious and there's looots of issues I have with that class. It's also way too long. :x



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09 Sep 2017, 5:50 pm

I won't lie.
Reading some of the "problems" people have here really f*****g s**ts me sometimes.
Oh, people aren't accepting your little quirks?
Poor thing.
Let's swap.
I realise this makes me...what?
A s**t person?
Perspective is a b***h.


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09 Sep 2017, 6:27 pm

Trying not to get bitter is trying.


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09 Sep 2017, 7:23 pm

Am I allowed to be bitter?
I don't know.
Trying not to be.
But, s**t.
I doubt anyone can imagine what I'm feeling.
And I can't describe it anyway.
Seems better to be angry at something right now than being horribly f*****g depressed.
But I'm not even really angry.
Don't know what I feel.
Mildly pissed?
Bit pathetic.
I'm sure this is not how I should feel.
What the f**k is wrong with me?
Besides the obvious.


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09 Sep 2017, 8:07 pm

What the f**k are you talking about?
Super healthy spiral of light.
You make my palms burn.


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09 Sep 2017, 10:07 pm

^ I'd assume that's pretty normal considering your situation.
But there have got to be some pluses you have in some areas that people with less severe problems don't have in other areas - if that makes sense.
I've had to perspective-check this with myself a lot too. Just because a problem seems trivial to me, it might be the biggest problem that person has ever had in their life, and as much, probably causes them the kind of distress that those from harder backgrounds would feel for their "big" problems.
It's difficult to swing with no empathy and no sense of what anything is like for anyone else, I can tell you. I think it best understood cognitively, as a concept.
Aaaaand I have no idea which posts you're referencing so can't really say. Just a 2c.


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09 Sep 2017, 11:10 pm

Meh.
Just giving my sh***y side an airing.
It was in danger of going mouldy.


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10 Sep 2017, 8:39 am

Raleigh wrote:
Meh.
Just giving my sh***y side an airing.
It was in danger of going mouldy.


Hugs!

it's not advisable to let that side go mouldy anyway. :shameonyou:



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10 Sep 2017, 4:49 pm

I don't feel bad, but just.. nothing. 8O I don't feel anything at all.

I haven't talked to anybody or done anything lately. Honestly just stayed in bed all day.



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10 Sep 2017, 9:32 pm

Take 'nothing' and change that to s**t.. I've felt like crap all week.



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10 Sep 2017, 9:37 pm

What I want to do right now is sleep and hug a turtle, not go to the library to scan shite and trace my damned stuff using the lightbox until midnight. :evil:

Rawr, f**k it all. :x



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10 Sep 2017, 9:47 pm

...Is what I would like to say, but I can't because this actually affects my grade, and if my grades drop then I'm screwed. :lol: :cry:

So even though that would be a refreshing thing to say, I can't because this is important. 8)



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11 Sep 2017, 3:44 am

I am just about sick of people getting pissed off or insisting I am wrong just because I don't think exactly like they do, in a neurological way.
I am sick of people projecting their emotional norms onto me. I am alexithymic. I do not have those same emotions. It's draining pretending to care, and keeping up this act of obligation, when I don't. I'm just doing it because it's the correct thing to do, philosophically, and because there would be drama if I didn't. I dislike it when everyone starts projecting their own sentimental, emotional crap onto my behaviour and assuming I am like them. I dislike it when people use their own emotional justification, just a parroted formulaic programmed response, to censure my entirely logical, pragmatic, deeply considered behaviour. They just throw this flimsy emotional reason at me as if that trumps everything I have considered about the subject, because it's emotional and my reasons aren't.
Increasingly, I need to get out of a lifestyle that assumes I am anything but a robot.


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