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...Well, thank you . I need to go to the bathroom and bed (In that order.) now, so g'bye now.

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...I slept later this A.M., only out of bed and going to the little boy's about 8:45 - Way too late to go to church at 10:15, as I'd planned.
Crippled as I am, I felt I had to allow myself - two hours?

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

Try to call up or visit the advocate I mentioned this week if you can. Things are really hard for you but you never know whats around the corner.

...I lost two previous attempts at this . This phone - Though it's all I have. - sometimes goes on a fritz just if you look at it . I am sitting ow in a KFC, mami g my way through ( By .y standards.) two meals worth of food...

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

......I had had just one (By my standards.) full meal up til' the KFC (I keep losing drafts of my posts here .)). I do, I admit, tend to go to food for consolation. I can't rest my feet at length, I can't read and listen to music, alone, in privavy - I can eat. Lots of salt & grease! And carbonation.

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...Earlier that day (It's now Monday.), I had decided to try another church service, an outdoor one near the Bay Bridge. But like when I went there before, once I got to that end, there was no bus/trolley for the last 1/2??, 3/4?? mile, so I walkwalkwalkwalkwalked my feet , and this time, got there I felt too late for me to go. Sometimes, I think of a noose. It's maybe not being cripppled, it's not being able to more work around-with it . Or maybe I'm trying to say what I know I'm supposed to.

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

When I lived in Santa Cruz, the waiting lists for an apartment had a hundred or so applicants. A landlord's market, with a vengeance. And expensive rents.

Crowded, because so many people want to live there. A beach-resort, but not really good for swimming. In a whole summer, there often will just be very few days when the air and the water are warm enough for swimming without catching cold.

Maybe global-warming has improved that situation by now. I don't know.

Michael829

...When did you live there? It doesn't really matter about landlords, my financial and possessions state and general status are so that, the only way I will get an apartment/place is through some Social Services agency or whatnot (Barring the extreme non-likelihood of some windfall coming along or whatnot,) I simply do not have $ and background/connection to get something through the " normal " route. (I believe this would follwnevenbif I " moved somewhere where thin
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Michael829"]When I lived in Santa Cruz, the waiting lists for an apartment had a hundred or so applicants. A landlord's market, wittnot,zh a vengeance. And expensive rents.

Crowded, because so many people want to live there. A beach-resort, but not really good for swimming. In a whole summer, there often will just be very few days when the air and the water are warm enough for swimming without catching cold.

Maybe global-warming has improved that situation by now. I don't know.

Michael829[/quote]

......I believe this would follow even if I " moved somewhere where things are cheaper ", as some would suggest. Even if I did - Paid for how? To where? And what would I do once I was there? And if it wasn't all that great, then what? - Those suggestions are more, mostly, " You can pick up a post-war tract house outrageously cheap! " And " Low regulations, favorable tax rate - A great place to start a business! "-type ideas, not things relating to the level which I am at . Fruits 5c cheaper per pound at the supermarket or lower gas price mean little when you.don't have a home in which you could have a refrigerator, or a driver's licence.

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...At dinner tonite I got more s**t from the messhall staff about " We don't want you to be the last to leave ". And then, when I was far from the last to leave, they gave me s**t anyway! There even seemed to be something said about writing me up .
Last night, the new 2nd hand belt I'd bought broke on me when I was sitting down to eat - before I ate. It was the first time I'd worn it. Mass-market stuff is so frequently a piece of junk these days ! I had enough money, I did manage to get another belt at a Goodwill the next Labor Day morning (It'sTuesday now.).
With the library closed, I did not leave the HL shelter's block-ish vicinity all day, resting my feet - And rather " nusianceishy ", I guess, eating junk food and reading while lie-sitting on the sidewalk treating it as my " concrete beach ", then eating more at a pizzera...including a real sugar-y Mexican Coke ÷ then, later on, after dinner and after my phone was charged up 100% (rare for me)...

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...It's1:45 AM, I am being " another homeless dude hangi g out in front of his shelter ' as I've tried?? to avoid being, Pandora on my phone has a station for The Dickies but a Ramones song just finished followed by a Dicckies song. Earlier, I had started a station for this Big.Band era singer, Bea Wain, who just died recently. Now it's Devo.
I feel pretty good actually, but I decidedly over-consumed junk food & sugar to-day, and didn't go beyond two block's adius from the shelter in any direction.

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...Okay, post-the 100% cjarge, I decided to go outside and balance out the massive amount of sugar I was sure I'd consumed (I think maybe enough to get me ER'd at a hospital, if not admitted, if I were measured by medicos, which I am not trying to do tonight, and haven't done...though in the past I have " partied with sugar " when I wanted to go to go to the hpspital.) by getting some diet aoda...which I did but I also got an ice cream and a box of Chicken In A Biskit crackers, which I have now finished...

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...I lost ANOTHER! draft ...I'm not going to wrap this up, then, it's 3:16 A.M., - 17, now - it's cold and I'm now near-completely alone in front of the shelter, I switched the Pandora to a station for Dave Van Ronk (This " Greenwich Village folk era " dude who, though I never saw him, I have a weird passage-of-time story about.) which is now playing some B. Dylan " Bootleg Series " version of " Hard Rain "...........Supposedly he wrote that song during the Cuban Missle Crisis when everybody, supposedly, was angsting that the Bomb
might drop in the next week...I was a lil' kiddie and don't remember it:-)!

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

It went up to 106 in SF, an all-time record, a couple of days ago.

How did you handle that?