Anyone with Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD)?

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LeagueGirl, at least I'm not the only one who worries about getting older and therefore less pretty. I don't know how people stand it. I really don't. I know it's disordered that I can't understand it but I can't.

I was once watching a show on OCD and there was this one middle age man who was also afraid of getting older and he wanted to look young and stay that way so he worked out excessively. He had to do it or he feel anxious if he doesn't and it impaired his life. He could never relax. It was always about working out.

I'm a 51 year old woman, diagnosed with Asperger's. Today I was at the hairdressers and spent the time in the chair feeling trapped and panicky because of the mirror in front of me. I worked hard to avoid my own eyes but it was difficult, and I couldn't escape the sense of being hyper-aware of my own body, which terrifies me when I become aware of it. I hated the way I look, as I always do. I even wondered why the woman was bothering giving a haircut to someone who looks so awful. Logically I know I probably don't look any different to any other woman of my age. But this belief in my absolute ugliness comes from a place which no amount of reassurance or reason can reach.