I tend to have an upsetting repetitive ritual in thinking about my past a lot.
In fact, some people stand out. One such person is the sister of a young lady who I am considering inviting to join this forum. She used to be a social worker, and I think she would help all of you out greatly. However, I have not heard from her in a while.
I think you are probably right about your son. That's how some people attempt huimor sometimes. I am confident that you will do an excellent job raising your child, and that you will teach him right from wrong.