Hauge wrote:
TTRSage, You have most of it! - But, for me, theres also another thing playing a major role. Environment! The more sensory distraction ( noise, people, flickering light ect. ) the worse!
I really like Your parallel to Ben X. It just seems so familliar! Thats one of the main reasons for me to feel alien...
Another very good point (that is also addressed in Ben X)... all the noise and all the people!! ! What is even worse is people making people noise such as talking outside your door or through walls in the next room. And what is even worse still is when they are talking about you and trying to intimidate you in order to put a feather in their hat (typical bullying behavior). I get a whole lot of that lately where I live after a group of young aggressive jock types moved in about 9 months ago. It is enough to drive an Aspie absolutely crazy... far worse than the boomboxes that used to be there (I should not say that or as luck goes they might get one of those too).
Do take a look at Ben X if you ever get the chance. It is a Belgian film festival movie, not that easy to find, exclusively in the Flemish language (maybe that is close enough to Danish so that you might be able to follow it) and I had to read subtitles all the way through. But it is well worth the effort and in my opinion is one of the better and more realistic portrayals of Aspergers Syndrome. Ben has AS to a more profound degree than it affects me but I could really feel his pain and understood the reasons behind all that he experienced so much better than with any other autism movie I have seen. It has a surprise ending that will make you smile, but I won't ruin the movie for you by describing it. The scene I absolutely love is the one in the corral at the very end (after that surprise ending) in which Ben's mom accepts and is happy for him exactly as he is in his fantasy world state. That is an expression of real love and greatly affected my outlook towards another real life Aspie who seems too profoundly affected to ever be reached by me... even though I have spent the past 18 months (as of this Tuesday) gently attempting to do so. It was as a result of this Aspie, this movie and a lot of research and understanding that I came to realize that I myself had AS.
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