Kalister1 wrote:
"Unless suffering is the direct and immediate object of life, our existence must entirely fail of its aim. It is absurd to look upon the enormous amount of pain that abounds everywhere in the world, and originates in needs and necessities inseparable from life itself, as serving no purpose at all and the result of mere chance. Each separate misfortune, as it comes, seems, no doubt, to be something exceptional; but misfortune in general is the rule."
-- Arthur Schopenhauer, Studies in Pessimism
That is how I ALWAYS felt! I have always looked for a purpose outside of my amusement, provision, or worship for myself or others. I am at a loss. Something in my character screams I should be doing something I can't do.
Ana54,
What kind of braincandy do you take? What kind of stims? You actually set time aside for stims?
BTW...My life isn't much different from most of yours. If I was filthy rich, I would probably go to libraries, workout places, and relax at restaurants and program, and might go to foreign countries and do the same THERE. Outside of that, my life would be as it is. I go to work, eat, sleep, do my interests, MAYBE do something different every few weeks(like a road trip or a walk) and try to take care of myself. As I said, what else is there really to do?