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Thanks for you answers , I still feel like a child when it comes to self awareness , I am socially naive and didn't even realise it. I've learned so much about myself in the last year. I've just lumped all my issues into one big label and never really questioned it , I just accepted that I was a weirdo and would always struggle. I have always been too scared to actually investigate what is actually wrong with me.

If it's not painful and nobody minds sharing could you please describe what your senses go through with shutdowns , meltdowns.

For the longest time when I've had an episode ( of whatever is wrong with me ) I've believed I was going mad , felt like I was losing touch with reality , I get hypervigilant and make up all sort of crazy things in my mind but never cross the line where they become delusions ( i.e. completely believe the crazy stuff ) although it doesn't seem far off. I always feel like the next time might be the time I do become delusional and never come back.

I have done the same , I'm trying to avoid discussions which involve some sort of conflict but I know I'll end posting something that will cause conflict - I always do

hey, I can make some crazy threads to keep you busy and ward off the temptation! (If that might help)

You're welcome, Ferris. I, too, am socially naive, which is, in large part, why I stay away from certain types of discussions/topic threads, as well as speaking to people in PM's. PM's with certain types of communication style, make me extremely anxious. I let people know if I am too anxious to PM, and, that it is nothing to do with them, but rather, I simply become to anxious when PMing. Some people (not all) take it personally, and tell their friends that I am a horrible person, simply for having too much anxiety when I write in PM, then I get bullied. It has progressively become worse, and this is what has perpetuated my anxiety in recent weeks. I considered, yesterday, taking an extended hiatus from here, but two things came to mind - 1. The fact that it is extremely difficult for me to re-enter a room full of people, so I can't be sure I will have the ability to return, and, 2. I don't want to give bullies power over me/whether I stay or go. I get far too much out of WP, to leave, despite the fact that it has become exhausting and far, too anxiety provoking, to manage properly. This has happened, previously, the bullies got bored with me and moved on. I am hoping for the same, this round. Hopefully, sooner than later. Sorry, I made your post, too much about myself. Will return here, soon, to read more, and post, further.

This is what happens to me, verbatim. I have not been able to describe it, in words, so, thank you VERY much, posting your description of what happens to you. I am in this state, when I have high anxiety. Yesterday, you wrote somewhere that you stopped considering paranoia, as it is only connected to the S word, and, that it is, instead, your anxiety that you had been experiencing. I went off and introspected on that, and, I am quite sure that it is a form of being paranoid (at least in my case). Even if not diagnosable paranoia. Or, perhaps it is a fine line between extreme anxiety and paranoia. Anyway, your description is exactly, word-for-word what happens to me. It is ignited by being in a previous, anxious or inferior state of mind (in my case). I have put it in the category of social anxiety, but, my therapist says it stems from anxiety, in general.

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What do you like better: Ferris Wheels, or Ferrets?

I've never been on the London Eye, though I was right across the Thames from it quite a few times.

Wow! You've now made me feel not very special at all I'm glad my words have helped you and I find it crazy ( perhaps the wrong choice of word ) that you share similar experiences , if your going through anything that I'm experiencing my heart goes out to you . Maybe all I have is really bad anxiety then. Yeah the paranoia is not the medical definition of paranoia which is why I call it anxiety and maybe there is a very fine line between paranoia & anxiety. When you bring the S word into the equation , I thought that type of paranoia is believed 100% and unshakable?

C'mon we have weasels, stoats, minks, or any other animal group -- star nosed moles , duck-billed platypuses, Tasmanian devils, it's all good

Ferret Wheels

I've never been on the Eye either.

I have to say my favourite animal of all time is the duck-billed platypuses and was always the animal I chose when asked what animal I saw myself as - I've said too much haven't I

Who doesn't make a post unless it's about them and their experiences ? Well I know I do it 99% of the time. The biggest problem I have about WP is the amount of time I spend here , I can't get enough but know it's not good , the social anxiety aspect is something I've had for decades so it's like a part of me and I can usually to quote Taylor Swift 'shake it off' , in the past though I've usually got myself banned to keep myself in check.

I think a day off from WP every now and then is a good thing although very difficult for me

Hey, just say a word, and it's done!

I think they're marvellous as well!

*too scared to say anything ever again*

lol okie, no problem. But I can start it and say that they're my favourite animal No one will ever suspect a thing lol.