What do you worry about?

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I've deleted my all my saved websites associated with Lead poisoning, rooted out the causes to my manic panic state of mind, understood the causes to be false and unnecessary and to follow this fact to cure me of further worry.

It should be said with 'truth' that there are many aspies in the world who worry over trivial matters, I am sad to say that I am one of them.
Way back in September a simple problem of a broken boiler pipe led me think about Lead poisoning for six months, 7 days per month, 15 hours per day, 60 minutes per hour, basically every minute while I was conscious.
Being made aware that the boiler pipe in my bedroom was made of lead gave me reason for concern, but the real concern began when I read about the affects of lead poisoning, oh yeah, knowledge really is a good thing, right?
I began reading websites issuing warnings about 'lead paint in homes', on doors, windows, walls, basically in you home, 'the place in which you thought you felt safe in'.
Basically, my imagination took over at that point, and before I knew it I began seeing lead all over my clothes on my books and worse of all, in the atmosphere in which I breathed in. But it didn't end there, I even had thoughts of my dad sanding down lead paint and blowing it into my bedroom, yep your imagination can really play some mean tricks on you.
I even had two lead blood tests both of which came back as low lead concentration, and yet I was still adamant that I was still being exposed to Lead.......

This nonsense clever trick of the imagination and knowledge of lead was the perfect recipe for 6 months of constant worry and concern, it halted my daily feast of learning and affected my communication at work, my inspiring imagination to further my progress...
What might seem a trivial concern to one person might be a serious or threatening concern towards a person with aspergers, it doesn’t make any difference whether the possibilities of that concern is made low, when a person with AS has the facts he/she will swear truth by them.

I read the affects of lead poisoning, the source of lead and to whom which household was categorised at most risk, I felt that I was at risk and nobody could convince me otherwise.
Since this experience, what I have learned is that I often don’t grasp or even notice possibility outcomes of events, i.e. I rely on proven investigation and knowledge to seek the truth rather then rely on luck/chance and possibility, I wouldn’t be hesitant to say that I only think of negative thoughts, otherwise I would never set foot on a aeroplane.
For me today, its learning not to take facts and proven knowledge at face value, it is learning to accept possibility and chance as a first or second option. Who knows, this rule might work on me.

My question for all users is:

Can you relate to this experience of constant concern? And do rely on fact and proven knowledge rather than possibility and chance?

It would be nice to here from your replies.

I am obcessed in a simliar way with my air conditioner - and I live in Texas so it runs pretty much constantly for 3 months out of the year - if it is not running I wonder why it is not running and if it is running I wonder if it is running well and why it hasn't turned off and what my electric bill will be . . .
One time the drain for the condensation got blocked - this is like 2 years ago - so now I have to check that once a day when it is running - at least once a day . . .
Yesterday was the first day it came on this season and I was very concerned about it . . .
The heat also stresses me out because it runs on gas and gas is dangerous . . .

Other things take on similar importance such as my back door is warped - and has been since I owned the house - but now I'm worried about it just popping open . . .
Also, one of my trees is rubbing against the eves on the house and I'm worried that it might knock the house down (even though my handman looked at it the other day and said 'Yeah, I can fix it, but trees grow really slowly, so there is nothing to worry about' . . .)

Oh - and my car - if it makes a tiny little noise I think I'm going to need to take it in . . .

But mostly it is the air conditioner . . .

I have a few Obsessions
1) Death from anything from elevators to airplanes
2) People treating me wrong or stealing from me
3) Strange Sounds at night

Anything and Everything.

Yep, I'm much the same, I worry about everything.

I've not worried quite that obsessively about anything, except people hating me. I'm constantly worried that I'm making a fool of myself, and that people are hating me for it. Though I worry about just about anything else too.

I have a tendency to imagine possible negative situations and then worry myself silly over these things actually happening. Sometimes these are situations that really could happen, while other times it's all in my imagination. And even though I know how unfounded my worries are, I can't seem to stop them.

Well...I do really rely on fact but it doesn't help keeping the constant worry for the future and worry for my fiance' who I always worry about even though I know she's okay.

I'm always in constant worry of the Future. I worry about my Future and that I'll be stuck on a Wait List to get into a subsidized Appartment forever. I worry that I'll be stuck living with my Folks, longer than I hope. I worry about the Future of the World, as well. I worry about Global Warming. I worry about the Politics around the World. I worry about Nucular War. I worry about Food, as well. I worry, whenever I make the wrong nutritional choices. I fix that by making the right chioces. I worry about my Health. I worry about Body Language. Do I look confident, or weak? I stand as tall as I can. I worry about the health of my Friends, Family and Relatives. I worry about money. I'm starting to do something about the money, by making sure that I put away at least, $300 into my Account, at least nine times a year. I worry about Rape and Murders. I don't go out, past 6:30, durring the darkest Months of the Year. I worry about the eating habits of a long time friend. I worry that if she doesn't stop eating the wrong foods, in such large portions that she can have a Stroke, Diabeties, or a Heart Attack and possibly die. I worry about the future of the few remaining Routemasters that are being operated on their Heritage Routes. I worry about my little Chico, every day, because he's my Puppy Dog.

At the moment, my life as it seems to have a lack of true direction. I'm anxious about going to work again as my first full time job was such a bad experience towards the end and I'm frightened that I will be faced with the same situation again. Apart from three of my ex co-workers, I'm ashamed to know that the others exist and how they sleep at night is beyond me. I actually want to leave this country (England) for a while to get as far away from all the things that are bothering me as possible, plus I've always wanted to travel or work abroad anyway. I'm trying out for that as I can't go for my Masters this year as some of the application dates have been and gone and the rest are too close for me to sort out so that will be something to do next year. I'm just glad for the fact that I have my friends and some members of my family to talk to and be supportive towards me.

I too worry about things related to my home. Innumerable things, in fact. Photon and Animalflower, I have had similar experiences to you. Similar, but not the same.

Since I moved to my current apartment 2½ years ago, I have had a leaky roof until, well, last week when it was finally fixed properly - I think! It had been supposedly fixed before and still leaked, which didn't help my worrying. While I have tried to get the roof fixed (which for various reasons was difficult and a long process), and even now, I worried about the possibility of water getting into the roof timbers and rotting, which hasn't happened. I went through a phase of worrying that the ceiling would collapse just because a roofer said it would, if there was heavy prolonged rain. It hasn't collapsed, and it probably never will. That said, I keep on having visions of getting home to see the roof having collapsed - totally irrational. I avoid watching the weather forecast, and won't even look at the page in the newspaper which includes the weather forecast, because of all of the above.

There are other things I worry about vis-a-vis my home, but I know myself they are irrational fears. In fact I worry above anything else about losing my home. This is for a combination of reasons: I own my home (didn't become a homeowner by choice because of employment difficulties - parental pressure/guilt/shame/ridicule caused me to buy a home when I previously rented), am currently unemployed, am finding it difficult to get a job, and have had a lot of major unexpected expense on the home (not just the roof).

I worry that, if I did lose my home, that I'd have the opportunity of moving back with my parents. Suffice to say I just wouldn't be able to cope with that. They are trying to move to Malta anyway.

I worry that when offered a job and I accept, that it'll be another one where I was severely and gratuitously bullied like I was in my last job - or that I'll go through the rest of my life being unstable in employment, as I have been up till now.

For very good reason, I worry that I'll go any longer without a relationship, and being single.

I shouldn't be so much of a worrier. No-one can add any longer to their lives, or make their life better, by worrying. But it's perhaps best explained by saying that I have been subjected to not one or two, but a string of major traumatic experiences in the last 6 years.

I worry way to much!
mostly about:
My social status (lack thereof)
My future( possible lack thereof)
My life(misc ways)
everything else.

I heard this is kinda one of the key aspie traits

No joke, i worry I am not eating the right things because my farts are foul. i enjoy them but no one else does...

i mean, you can't exactly use it as a mating call can you?!

I have been told that this a common trait for some AS people...advice appreciated.

Do you mean it's common for AS people to worry about what they eat or that it's common for AS people to have foul farts? 'Cos I'm affected by both haha

I used to worry about absolutely everything as a child (as an adult I am only slightly better).

After my nan died when I was little I became obsessed with the idea of death. It was kind of like hypochondria I think. I would read about an illness in a magazine and then spend about six months convinced that I was going to get it or that I already had it, and then after a while instead of forgetting all about it I would move on to another disease...

I also had weird rituals to do with numbers. Certain numbers were "good" in terms of luck and others were bad.

I went through a phase of intensely worrying about everything I did or said and the impact it was having on other people...

I constantly worry that I will lose my job if I do the slightest thing that may upset my boss or coworkers, doesn't matter whether it's leaving early, coming in a minute late, taking time off sick...

I have a deep-seated fear of losing friends every time I express an opinion they might not like...

I'm worried about my best friend's eating habits...

I worry about time constantly, cramming in everything I want to do and not having enough time to do everything I want to...

I obsess about things being "fair" or "not fair" all the freakin' time

At the moment my biggest worry is what will happen if I get diagnosed with Asperger's, whether to tell my family, whether to tell friends and who to tell, and whether I might get carted off to the funny farm...