....I just do not think I am ready to be with a girl. There is a lot of wining and complaining on this board, and I have partaken in this I am sorry to say. I don't want to keep reinforcing that battered boy no-confidence cycle.
I really just want to know what it feels like. The feeling of having someone being with you, whether serious or not.
I feel like like you have to know who you are to have the confidence to get from A to B meeting a girl, and yet at the same time how much can you know about yourself if you have never been in a relationship before?
It just doesn't make any sense.
socially, emotionally, confidence, financially, where I am at just isnt there. I am not anywhere near close. I accept this. I still don't know how to get past this, but my situation just makes things impossible right now. OK. I have this horrible feeling thats it is NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER.
Im just s**t right now. OK it is time to improve.