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Thoughts from funion while unable to sleep before I disappear,

Why would someone hacking me be probable cause to get my ISP logs and spy on me anyways? Wouldn't that be probable cause to get ISP logs from the person that hacked me? And spy on them? Anyway, have fun going through useless steam and Netflix data.

Wtf

I guess drugs would be probable cause, but in small amounts that would be local not federal.

Me thinks I have Russian status with the fbi, I don't think anything I do unofficially bothers them but officially I am horrible person.

Meh I guess I get to play cat and mouse with the feds for life, that might be fun I guess, I don't know, I am a funion. Why yes I would like to play thermal global nuclear warfare, thanks for asking

I wouldn't want a badger in my house.

I would like to roll the Constitution up in a blunt and smoke it, if we're not gonna follow it I think it serves a better purpose as rolling paper.

We can write a new law in the land, one that says mkultra is okay and that everyone must have a mic implanted in them, preferably in peoples foreheads with the number 666. If we're gonna F the pooch, we might as well do it massively, we should probably just straight up praise Satan for the lulz.

Yeah yeah I know, I am here and no one likes me and I am lulz

I am leaving, I am leaving.

I came back for cathylynn. The rest of you can just lulz at me okay, I am QA.

The realisation that I may be a fully fledged FTM and not a genderqueer. tl;dr I have male mannerisms and a male brain. I prefer to wear men's clothes and have since puberty felt myself to be in drag every time I wear explicitly female clothes (usually when I'm forced to for a formal event). I have phantom sensations downstairs and hate my breasts. I have naturally high T and have felt happiness at extra hair coming in whereas most ciswomen would be disgusted at this.

But at the same time, I've never conformed to strict stereotypes of male as well as female. I'm masculine but not macho. I love art and writing and often act like a teenage fangirl when it comes to my favourite characters. I love the colour purple (while pink makes me shudder). I love My Little Pony. I know a lot of men like these things, but acceptable societal stereotypes are so ingrained in me that I can't help but feel they make me less "man".

Ugh, one of the main reasons I'm really looking forward to living on my own is so I at least don't have to keep hearing my parents accuse me of being lazy or not caring, or assuming that I haven't done/don't do things simply because they don't see me do them. Actually, I get things done while they're off at work, because I don't want people in the way or feeling like they're watching/judging me (for the way I do things), but apparently they assume I just laze about all day. And living on my own will also show them that I'm not too lazy to do the things necessary to live on one's own, and I'll probably keep my home tidier than they do to boot. Alas, first I need a job that pays enough to support myself, which doesn't look like it's happening anytime soon

I want to live on my own too. I'm so constrained here in multiple facets and I can't get total privacy.

What's the speed of gravity?

Technically, gravity waves. Apparently, they travel between 2.55 × 10^8 and 3.81 × 10^8 meters-per-second, completely consistent with Einstein's predictions. If a mass teleported into or out of existence, it would take some time for you to feel the effects.

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I'm scared again and mad. We just had some decks rebuilt and the management company guy sent over the invoice to "A" the one who stripped Mary of her presidency. The guy said " I don't know if you want to make the decision to pay now or wait until after the Special Meeting". as*holes. I sent an email back saying "why would the Special Meeting matter when it comes to oking a job to be paid?" Dumb Ass.

Mary had some people come up to her today to apologize - screw that! SOB's. Mary said it was insulting. One even tried to hug her! I woulda thrown up in my mouth. Anyone who signs those petitions are on my sh!t list. They are trying to close me out of the Board decisions right in front of me. I didn't even do anything. I feel like crying again. I hope that lawyer can do something.

Crap. I started crying and now can't stop. I need to get ahold of myself. I just can't believe they think they can do this and get away with it! I feel so alone. There are people out there that disagree with what is happening but they don't want to get involved. I don't blame them. I just wish I wasn't going through this alone. Mary doesn't have the stress anymore since she resigned, but now she has to deal with the humiliation. Mary was so stressed she was throwing up. I'm so stressed I'm getting chest pains. I won't be able to live with myself if I don't fight them. They will be able to use this against Mary forever. She never even got to defend herself. I'm going to defend myself. The Ass Holes can't win! I can't let them win.

Now I need to blow my nose.

Sister visiting. I don’t want to visit. Nts take it personally. I’m just as sick of catering to their needs as they must be to catering to mine.

I hate getting migraines later in the day. Well, I never enjoy getting migraines, but caffeine will often help with them - but if I have caffeine after 3-4 in the afternoon, I'll probably be getting little to no sleep that night. So I have to decide whether I'll put up with the excruciating pain at the time, or lack of sleep the next day. I decided to have caffeine tonight because it was getting to the point where I couldn't really do anything because the pain was so bad.