What the worst part of having ASD for you?

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My obsessiveness interest. There are times when I'm reading a book or on the internet when I can't physically move until I complete reading something, so much that I blow off much more important things. Also, stimuli overload, for once I would like to go to a party and be able to not be in danger of fainting or going into a meltdown, or constantly be blinded by lights that don't seem to affect other people. I also hate my manic-depressive moodswings. I hate my faulty memory, which can remember useless things but never anything important. It seems I have to read a book twice to retain information. I also wish I could read people better, so I wouldn't be as nervous when talking to them. I also wish I could make eye contact, only seem to be able to look a person in the eyes when I'm angry at them.

I don't know if this is related to my Dyspraxia or not, but I don't like the way I find myself shouting at the wrong times. My voice is that ugly tone what is loud and high-ish, and carries through walls. My voice is quite low generally, but when I start getting onto a subject what makes me excited or angry, it reaches a loud, high pitch. And so when the window-cleaner comes round, my mum either wants him to come when I'm here by myself (so that I don't have anyone to bicker with), or when I'm not here at all, because she thinks I'm embarrassing when I start subconsciously raising my voice. (You know how NTs are - they think a bit of embarrassment is the end of the world.)

I don't know if this is a prevalent characteristic of AS. But my worst part of having AS is saying or doing things and making impulses that I think are harmless, but can definitely offend people around me. I wish I had never had this problem ever in my life.

I have found this to be true, too. However, it is extremely hard to do when I'm already reaching saturation point.

I'm literally not compatible with anyone. I'm even extremely alien and different to other Aspies.

Not being able to understand others well. It really bothers me when I am talking to someone, and I don't know if they enjoy what I am saying, are annoyed, etc. Also, it is difficult to understand how others perceive me. Sometimes I wonder if I sound rude.

Feeling like I'm "outside" everything, that I don't fit in or belong anywhere. That I'm less than human.

For me it's the obsessive-compulsive personality issues. No matter how high I get in life they get in the way, especially my compulsion to start a task over if I don't do something the "right" way. I can resist the compulsion, I just won't enjoy the task, and this makes things that are supposed to be fun, more like chores.

Unlike with OCD the prognosis of OCPD is poor even with meds and therapy. It's what I am and I just sort of have to live with it.

Other than that I would say my sleep issues which are very very serious... but those CAN be treated by meds.

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For me it's that it clashes with my personality.

I am confident, outspoken, enthusiastic, sociable, ambitious, etc. but traits of ASD counter-act these - ASD is part of me and so part of my personality, but it leaves me feeling very stifled, it prevents me from doing so much and from showing my personality. I can only get so far with my social skills, ASD prevents me from moving any further forward and doing things how I want to do them. For me having ASD is something to try to overcome on a daily basis, but tragic then that I will never overcome it and never get to be who I am supposed to be.

The worst part is definitely the constant feeling that everyone, including friends and family, hates me.

I generally see my condition as a good thing, but the main bad part is, I would say, the bad social skills. I don't wish to be a sheep like everyone else I know, but I do wish to be able to socialise better.

Aye, me too.

I suppose it's a good thing that I don't desire social interaction but when it happens I sort of got nothing to work with. I can't do that fake thing, nor do I want to. I either say something offensive or they say something offensive and then I leave and write a horrible blog about them. I don't do that last part but I do think about how annoying that person is a great deal. Well not how annoying they are, just how frustrated it is to not get along with someone after some little comment they said or you said. There's so much more to my frustration then if one of us says the wrong thing. The not able to read people. The not knowing how to make a conversation last longer. The whole process is exhausting.

That and change bloody change. I can never adjust to it and even though I know I can't I still get uncomfortable or stressed out if it happens, suddenly or not so suddenly. I just never prepare for it. And my sensory issues make me want to punch a wall. Actually I have done that.

Sensory problems. Also, some forms of transitioning.

And if sleep-related problems count, those. I never sleep without strong medicine...

The bad high school memories that I have. My peers picked on me all the time, just for being a presence in the regular class rooms.