From a very early age I thought that me feeling different had to do with being smarter than most people. There is a long traumatic story attached it that I´d rather not go into at this moment. Anyway, I indeed scored in the 98th or 99th percentile ('gifted') on several IQ tests. So, I should feel at home with other gifted people, right? Wrong! I've been a member of Mensa for a few years, but never felt at home there.
As a child I had all kinds of fears. This turned into a panic disorder when I went to college. Therapies and medication only made it worse. I had to give up my job and have been on a disability pension since 1997. I began to isolate myself more and more, spending most of my time engrossed in my special interests. To my surprise the anxiety vanished spontaneously when I got really caught up in the life of 17th century Flemish painter.
Until I began to realize that the reason for my behaviour might be ASD, I was mildly to moderately depressed because I had no support whatsoever and didn't trust anyone anymore. Least of all mental health care professionals.