40 this time around, but I am not diagnosed with Aspergers.
I am diagnosed with Social Anxiety and Depression and was awarded disability because "I cannot cope with social interaction and change". Both seem to upset me....
Who knows what is causing what, I really just want to stay in my own little world and stop trying to be normal like everyone else out there. Its far too stressful, far too tiring and really I am mostly happy by myself tinkering around with my hobbies anyway (which is presently evolution, palaeogeology and palaeontology....so I am doing a BSc with the Open University in the Earth/Life Sciences). I also like my routines thank you very much and no I am sorry but social chit chat in the usual sense (ie gossip, small talk etc) bores me senseless. Socialising is like torture!
But I have to go for therapy and my therapists think they can make me normal.
Excuse me whilst I choke with laughter. I was never normal, not even as a kid and it just feels like they are trying to change my wiring and not some anxiety disorder that suddenly manifested itself in later life. So tired of the world trying to change me, when I can only really be who I am.