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[quote="LD92]
Ahh okay. Thank you for clarifying that for me 
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Indeed, I agree that it's not good that they don't care. I may have a 'cold personality' because I lack empathy for most, however I WANT to feel things, unlike those people you mentioned I suppose.
So would you say that the way that I am hardwired is an AS thing or just the way that I am? [/quote]
Exactly, you want to feel things and to feel a part of the human community and in a positive way even though your capacity to do so may be limited. That is an important distinction.
In answer to your question, all I can say is that I am not a psychiatrist so my opinion is just that - an opinion based on info that you have imparted here and my limited knowledge of AS from my own experience and research and from my own therapist. You quite possibly exhibit other traits associated with AS that we have not discussed here. If that is the case then I would suggest those professionals are correct in their assumption. The AS would explain your brain's hardwiring.
If you persue an official diagnosis you may be relieved to learn that AS is actually the reason for your being the way you are. If it helps to explain things about yourself then that is a great thing. In your case since you have had several professionals inclined to believe that you have AS then I would think that is the case.
I read an intersting book by John Elder Robinson called "Look me in the eye". An interesting fellow with Aspergers and an interesting story to tell. There is a chapter near the end of the book -something about becomming normal. He suggests that over his life he had thru much work on himself been able to rewire his brain patterns to at least some extent as to get him closer to being "normal". Besides being a very intersting book, I found that hopeful and inspirational for myself. Perhaps if you havent already it would be a good read for you.
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07 Jul 2012, 1:57 pm
07 Jul 2012, 2:34 pm
.Indeed, I agree that it's not good that they don't care. I may have a 'cold personality' because I lack empathy for most, however I WANT to feel things, unlike those people you mentioned I suppose.
So would you say that the way that I am hardwired is an AS thing or just the way that I am?
Exactly, you want to feel things and to feel a part of the human community and in a positive way even though your capacity to do so may be limited. That is an important distinction.
In answer to your question, all I can say is that I am not a psychiatrist so my opinion is just that - an opinion based on info that you have imparted here and my limited knowledge of AS from my own experience and research and from my own therapist. You quite possibly exhibit other traits associated with AS that we have not discussed here. If that is the case then I would suggest those professionals are correct in their assumption. The AS would explain your brain's hardwiring.
If you persue an official diagnosis you may be relieved to learn that AS is actually the reason for your being the way you are. If it helps to explain things about yourself then that is a great thing. In your case since you have had several professionals inclined to believe that you have AS then I would think that is the case.
I read an interesting book by John Elder Robinson called "Look me in the eye". An interesting fellow with Aspergers and an interesting story to tell. There is a chapter near the end of the book - something about becomming normal. He suggests that over his life he had through much work on himself been able to rewire his brain patterns to at least some extent as to get him closer to being "normal". Besides being a very intersting book, I found that hopeful and inspirational for myself. Perhaps if you havent already it would be a good read for you.
Indeed, I do want to feel things. I mean, I do see some uses for not feeling much towards others - you don't get hurt. I mean there's constantly things on the News that's happening everyday, it must be exhausting to feel for all of the people that are hurt, however, I get annoyed at myself sometimes for not feeling things, when it's clear that everyone around me is and I'm not, so I feel something negative anyway.
Indeed! I was just about to post something to do with this! It's strange... I get frustrated with the way that I am currently, because I don't have a reason for it, I'm just weird. But if I had a diagnosis; even the thought of it makes me feel better, I would be able to accept myself, because there's a reason for it. Why does the label matter so much to me? Do you find it helps you?
Hmm, I might research the book that you have suggested. Thanks! Have you read the book "Born on a Blue Day?" by Daniel Emmet? It's about a man called Daniel, who sees numbers as shapes, colours and textures and can perform extraordinary maths in his head. He can also learn to speak a language fluently from scratch in a week. Evidently, he has Savant Syndrome (a rare form of Asperger's), so it's not completely relevent, but it was so interesting that I read it in one sitting! It's not a massive book so it wouldn't take long anyway, but I often read books in more than one sitting. He's also written a new book called "Embracing the Wide Sky", however I haven't read it yet. I plan to in the near future though!
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