Why?
19 Dec 2006, 8:10 pm
-SpaceCase
Why can't forget what has happened to me?
Why did those 2 men get off free?
Why do those two men get to go on with their lives as if nothing happened when they turned my life upside down?
Why can't I get that part of me that they stole when they did that to me?
Why can't I fully trust others?
Why does every man I've allowed in my life hurt me?
Have you to had any professional counselling for the awful experiences you had??
I dont mean that in a derogatory way either. I'm quite rare as a male to have suffered similar bad experiences, and i left it 11 years since my worst attack to seek help.
What you went through is very hard to rationalise on your own. Without help the effects can end up ruling your life.
Aspiegurl89 you sound like you are still in a lot of pain from those few questions.
Your feelings on what happened are very very common amoungst people who have suffered similar attacks. And help is avaiable to help you understand and rationalise in your head so you can carry on with out constant pain.
Yeah. I've had counseling and therapy..still in it actually. I'm not always in pain. It's just that sometimes I have flashabck nightmares of when I was raped or 2 days later sexually assaulted my a different man and that sets me off to think about it all. Thats all. I still have the pain and I can say that it is way less than when it was when those 2 events happened (April of 2005). I had severe anxiety. Now, I'm on meds and doing so much better. I just read soem poems and had a flashback the night before I wrote that. But I honestly appreciate your concern. It means alot. I'm sorry that you had to go through a similar experience. I hope all is well and that you are able to move on and when you need to talk, I'm willing to listen considering I understand.
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"You Know You're In Love When You Can't Fall Asleep Cuz Reality Is Finally Better Than Your Dreams"
20 Dec 2006, 2:59 pm
If someone raped you it was in no way your responsibility (both members who made mention of this in this topic), and I'm not talking about decisions that in retrospect probably weren't smart (going to a party, talking to some guy, whatever). Rape (and molestation) is an immoral and evil act.
I wish I was better at comforting people but I'm really not very good at it.
People have free will. People think about the decisions they are going to make and make those decisions. That someone is his head worked out the idea that he would violate a person in such a person is an indication of how horrible they are. They could have done it to anyone but they did it to you and that is terrible.
When I think about how my life might be particular bad it is things like this that remind me that it is not.
I know I'm not being much help and I wish, again, that I was better at it. I'm terribly sorry for what you've had to for through.
I hope at some point you get the support you need and deserve.
