Beetzart wrote:
I was in a small but busy supermarket today and was in a slow moving queue. No one touched me but it felt like they were all pressuring me somehow which led me to feel utterly confused. There were conversations of small talk all around me and whispered comments. Yet it all seemed like a disrupted humming noise. I felt rushed when I was served and got all clumsy and it seemed to take forever for me to bag my stuff up.
It has always been like that for me. Crushing anxiety and irritation with a sense of detachment from those around you. Does this happen to others?
You're not alone, mate. I'm like this myself, distracted by comments, small talks behind me making me shy and anxious. Outside I may look insecure, uncaring and vulnerable. When I am actually out shopping, I tend to do my objectives on my mind (go out > take money out of ATM > buy a game and my lunch > back home), no matter how awkward, aloof and clumsy I'm in the public. When I'm actually standing in queues, I fidget with my hands or object to do something instead of staring or standing stiff when I'm shaking mildly and hiding my shyness and anxiety and I tend to fear the negative and think of it since I have my bad experiences of that.
09 Nov 2012, 7:09 pm
