scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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+1 hopefully, I'll be able to rectify a certain situation in the next 5-10 business days.

3.
My life keeps getting worse, and I'm not sure how to change that.

-1,000,000,000,000,000

My degree is useless because it's not in medicine, law, engineering, or computer science. I could have excelled in those fields if the high school I attended had actually prepared people for college and not given people straight As just for showing up. The school district was afraid that if they took a college-prep route, only the white students would graduate. They were way more focused in enforcing zero-tolerance behavior policies, which were designed mostly to keep minority students in line, than actually educating people. Because of the district's subtle racism, I was cheated out of meaningful employment in a high-demand, high-paying field.

Even if I do find something, I will likely be permanently priced out of the neighborhoods I want to live in. In Houston, those neighborhoods are the Heights and Montrose, both of which are known for quirky, artsy restaurants, music venues, and stores. Those are where the few people in my area with the same interests would likely live. The only way to convince people in other areas to have those interests would be to pass laws that would eradicate religion from society, or simply to force people to have those interests. (most suburbs of Houston are evangelical central, and those people think animated comedies and art-house films are evil and offensive)

As far as relationships, those issues are keeping me from finding a partner with the same interests, and with whom I would be sexually compatible. I swear, if I hear another conservative Christian woman say "I refuse to have sex until I'm married, and even then, I'm only willing to do missionary"--my head will explode.

So I am super-duper stressed about those things.

Feel like trash today... -7

-8

I'm reluctant to go all the way to -10, lest I tempt fate and have an even worse feeling tomorrow.

-10

Basically just ignoring the fact I want to die, if I ignore it enough it, it'll probably go away.

good plan, dcj.

Breathing / 10

Death and destruction,

Nothing else left to see or experience,

-8. bleak.

-3

-5

+1 ^ sorry to hear of your disenchantment Butterfly88

-2

Feeling low but also not caring, life sucks but there is no fix kinda of thing. This is actually a really good mood for me compared to how I have been.

It's been from 2 to 0 for many months now.

-9 everyone hates me i dont know why in bother living.