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well i just turned 22 a couple days ago and now xmas is its on its way and things dont look too good my mom has been borrowing money to buy gifts for students and co workers at her school and she even made me borrow and i told her nobody bought anything for me why should i borrow money for people that i dont even know and that if i borrow it should be to buy something for myself as a presnt for my own birthday or christmas and she got all angry at me for it for me saying i dont deserve to buy anything i was going to buy a guitar for a 100 bucks which is dirt cheap for a guitar and she said when you move on your own you can buy what ever you want right now im just crying i feel so empty hopeless and i just wish i was dead and burried so i wouldnt have to suffer anymore nobody really loves me or cares for me i dont have a gf or anyone that would really miss me or care about me maybe if i die i could see my dead cat who i know loved me :'(

You shouldnt be being forced to borrow money for your mother.

Suicide is NOT a logical solution to your problems.

What you wrote tells me you are vulnerable and dependant on support to cope. You are not recieving that support.

You want the pain to stop. You see suicide as the logical solution. Your logic is flawed.


If your mother will not listen speak to a doctor and seek professional help.

I'm sorry you're feeling bad, immortalwarrior. The holidays are always rife with stress. Your mom should not ask you to borrow money, unless this is something you are willing to do.

Yeah Christmas is a total crock of sh*t. Its got my sister stressed out. Something with women and Christmas is just f***ing wrong. Barrowing money for Christams has to be
the defintion of bad financial magangement. Thank "God" only one person(my dads gf) in mylife every pressured me to buy present for everbody(I had a job and money then). I have not asked for a Christmas gift since I was 13 so no f***ing way Im buying anything for a non-kid. I say buy no present and tell people not to give you any gifts. Hell call everbody your close to and tell them you do not want any gifts. Say
you tire of stress , BS, and concept of Christmas. Tell them you would love to meet them on Christmas but gift exchange is not going to be apart of it.

don't take your own life! Whatever you do, don't take your own life!

It definitely sucks when nobody cares about you.

It sounds like things might be better for you if you could manage to figure out a way to live someplace else, put a little distance between you and your mother.

Killing yourself is something you can always do later. if you're that unhappy with the status quo, it might be an idea to go off in a totally new direction first, see what happens and what you can put together.

I got a dog who loves me. She's still alive, but I understand about the cat. If she's waiting for you on the other side, I don't think she'd mind waiting a while longer.

I am depressed because this is my first Christmas since 2001 without a significant other.

Tim

I have been in a bout of depression for 7mos straight now. Although I've been fighting depression for years now. The root of this 7mo depression is a result of losing my best friends, my cat of 13yrs(still have her 2 daughters), and being moved somewhere I hate. Ever since I moved, I have become more and more isolated and less and less tolerant of socializing and going out in public. I actually am on two antidepressants but even they can't completely keep my anxiety and depression at bay. I HATE to even think what the hell I'd be like if I wasn't on them. YIKES!! !!

that was some pretty harsh words from your mom..

you should talk to your mom about it (if you can)

don't kill yourself though.. nobody wants to see you die. the perception that 'nobody cares' is false