Why does this keep happening!!

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It's not fair a few months ago I started writing a story and then I started to feel a very strange feeling about it, I had very little interest in it and whenever I thought about it I felt guilty because I wasn't enjoying writing it. It was ok though because I stopped writing it and then I still feel really horrible and guilty everytime I look at the book it's in.
Now it's happening with another story I'm writing and litterally two days ago I was loving that story and then it just went click and nothing. I was crying going to sleep last night and I felt so angry. I don't understand! I have had a lapse in the special interest surrounding the story at the same time and I feel I have nothing to do at all! I am just feeling so so down and really don't know what to do.
I was told by my psychologist I had to stop doing things that I didn't want to do and say I should be doing them but then I have nothing!! I am just so upset and confused someone please help.

My mom and I both do that. I just tell myself I'll get back to it someday. Or that it just clearly wasn't all that important to me since I have obviously abandoned it.

Hi, Pixie:

Please forgive me if I misunderstand the point you are trying to make, but I offer the following in the hope it will help:

As someone who has spent a lot of years writing and who presently is in the company of writers, it is okay to detach from your stories. I have boxes full of the same and I worried about it, too. I lamented to a group of writers about a novel I had half completed and they snorted and told me they had two or three of the same, that "everyone does". You will have lots of stops and starts. I file mine - I keep everything. Sometimes I will pick up a piece of writing that has sat for years and suddenly it will get finished - or, it might not, but it at least caught my interest again.

You might want to have a file or a binder for unfinished work. I think the bigger problem is the worry and guilt over losing interest and not finishing your stories. I also think what might be going on, and I am merely guessing, is something I have struggled with - you want the feeling you have when you are interested to stay the same the whole time you write - it is that intensity and the sweet-feeling, and it doesn't feel good when it is any less. Is this true for you?

Maybe you could just enjoy writing as far as you get, because hopefully that bit of time was good for you. Actually, writing part-stories are really good exercises if you are interested in becoming a writer - it all sharpens your skills. You will have far, far, far, far more unfinished stories than finished stories and that makes you a "real writer." You might come to love your unfinished work pile as I now do - but it did take time for me to accept this. I took a class with a writer who showed us her method for saving all of her bits and pieces of work. Sometimes those ideas come back to be useful later on, even if you don't actually finish the piece - you might like some of the ideas again and use them. I think it is wonderful that you are writing and I hope you do come to love your unfinished work pile. Sometimes writing will just come to you, but a lot of the time it is a lot of work and a painful process. My lit prof told me that the "tortured artist" is true, but no one actually tortures us - we put ourselves there. If writing is your goal, you sound like a writer to me.

Just my thoughts. I hope you keep writing. LM

I have that too to some degree but I often catch myself getting back to my projects (I'm not a writer by the way, my special interest is game and level design).

I suggest it has to do with my perfectionism, if I see flaws I start to become demotivated. I start a new one and realize the current ideas, then I get back to it. It is useful to have people who motivate you to get back to your projects (but not in an annoying way).
So, maybe you are just perfectionistic?

Good call, Sylvastor - I will echo you in that trait. It has been pointed out to me frequently. My profs point it out, for one. One of my comments, for example, said: what if you just let yourself be "wrong." Ha. My doctor said that at school, people who do not have AS will commonly say: oh, this assignment is only worth 5%, I can let it go. Whereas it is common for people with AS to be anal and diligent about that 5%. This is true for me, anyways. My profs have noted this about me, and not always in an admiring way: I can't believe you did all that work for this small percentage - what's wrong with you?