Going Crazy

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Seriously. I cannot take this any longer. As some of you know, I was sectioned last year for 28 days (which was only about a 1/4 of my whole stay). I had to suffer the wrath of S****** Unit (I shall not name it due to confidentiality etc) in Greater London. I am remembering horrible, horrible things about it and I cannot get it out of my mind. I am having visions of what happened there - very vivid flashbacks. I'm not seeing my Dr. until Friday and I don't know how I'll manage tonight. I don't even think I'll go to sleep.

What?

Don't what me.

Develop your question please.

i wish i knew what to say....

do you find it helpful to write about what happens in the flashbacks, or would it just make them worse?

It does help, but I have trouble getting my thoughts onto paper.
Shamrock Unit is a secure ward. I was sent there because in the midst of my schizophrenia, I attacked a doctor (not really meaning to).
There was one nurse there who pinned my arm behind my back (when I was being held down) and pushed it towards my head police-style. He then told me to "shut the f*** up". That, and the paedophile guy. It was an adult ward. I was 16. I was not even supposed to be on that ward, they just couldn't find an NHS adolescent secure ward.

uh, this may sound dumb, or not well thought out, but...

call the law?

Make some kind of formal complaint? Granted, the easiest as*hole move for the facility to use would be to go "Who are you going to believe, us, or the "crazy" person?" If you were brushed off because of that, I'd say it would be lawsuit time.

I'm not a lawyer though, nor do I have any legal training, nor am I familiar with the laws on that side of the pond, so I have no clue whether or not such a suit would hold any water in court.

Typical NHS, betraying yet another person in need of support.

Speak to your PCT (Primary Care Trust) about this.

Thank you for the advice. I will be complaining to my Dr. on Friday. Because I was also held in a room for 6.5 hours and given more drugs than is humane. It was one long horror story and I think I've got something like PTSD from it.

I am going to get my medical records from the NHS soon (or maybe I'll have to wait until I turn 18, I'm not sure). That will clear things up for me because I just can't remember most of what happened, and knowledge is power and knowledge calms me down.

I know the feeling all too well.

Are your parents involved?

Are your parents involved?

It feels good, yet my doctor has reservations.

I can imagine my medical records... I think they would traumatise me, especially if I see my drug chart and the words "emergency sedation" and all those blasted drug names plastered over it.

I cannot talk about what happened at the hospital with my parents; it would upset them too much. If you were a parent would like to know that your daughter was restrained for over 6 hours and have her describe the whole ordeal? My psychiatrist kept that secret from my parents because he knew that.

I'm going to BED now.

Yes, as a parent I would want to know.Also any restraints should have been documented.Your physhiatrist was wrong in not telling your parents.He should not be involved in any cover up what soever. I use to work in a Group Home, any and all restraints were documented, and if it lasted longer than 30 minutes....well that is when liscensing would want to pay us a visit.When that has happened we called in the restraint to liscensing ASAP, which we had to do anyways, but along with that, Social Workers, Therapist, and Physhiatrist and parents who are involved with client notified. Not doing so would cause one to question why not. It's for the sake of the clients we tell. I've heard lots of horror stories about illegal restraints, I'm telling you, any restraint that is done they better have a very good reason, if not....well those are the ones that are kept secret. I'm a parent, and I'm telling you, your parents need to know this happened to you. Please tell them.