I may be ready to give up.

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Starbuline, you have to find a way to stop drinking cough syrup like that; in amounts like that it's poisonous, you're causing tremendous damage to your body that could follow you for life. If you trust the doctor your family takes you to even the smallest amount, go to him/ her and tell them what you've been doing. You should tell your parents the truth too, even if they are not nice people (I don't know if they are or not).

Do you have a therapist? I'm sorry, I can't remember from your posts if you do or not.

If this friend is a true friend, he'll forgive you.

Where the hell is Starbuline?

I'm starting to get worried.

I just hope she's alright...

Yeah, as do I, and I'm sure many others. I'm really hoping that its simply due to a difference in time-zone. If she went to school, it could be a couple hours or more until she's home.

I say that trying to be positive, but I'd be lying if I said that thought has really been all that much help to me.

I'm sorry about all of this, I shut down for a while.

no worries SB, hope u r feeling a bit better

Try to get some help from a medical type, starbuline. I am not a medical-oriented person, but this is an emergency. You're damaging your kidneys, among other things.

Sometimes it helps to have someone to vent to about everything that's going wrong. I'd be willing to listen.

If you go to therapy and it doens't work out see a different therapist. That's what I did, the new therapist is helping a little, and she doesn't piss me off after I see her like the other one did. Even though she really isn't helping me improve my social ability, at least she gives me somebody to talk to.

If you are having a hard time staying awake cough syrup isn't the answer, try something like red bull.

Are you in high school? If so then if you can't get up, don't, somebody will find out something is wrong and will help you.

When I was in high school I got along so poorly with my "stepfather" that I just could not live like that and I ran away for a few hours, when I returned my mom took me to a crisis center, for a week I got to live with civilized people and eat full meals with snacks, when I got home I was treated somewhat better by my stepdad and I was fed better and wasn't locked out of the house in sub zero temperatures for hours on end. Confronting my parents worked out a lot better than my suicide attempt.

Didn't you mention once that someone in your family is alcoholic?

Have you thought about Al-anon or something like that?

My dad's a big drinker.

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i didn't mean to let this life-story here for long,
but if you(or someone)'d want to, i'm always ready to talk about it.

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My theory is the suicide of Nikki Bacharach will provide increased motivation for many aspies to committ suicide. Others in ones enviroment commiting sucide is a
risk factor for suicide. Women tend to commit suicide at a much lowwer rate than men so Nikki being a 40 year old (I think) lady may send a message to young aspie women of modest means that the the daughter of a celerbity found no treatment in 40 years.

Thats one thing about suicide that people should consider is it just stimulates other to kill themself. Another factor is if people do not feel moral
reason not to kill themselves that increases the chance of suicide. Many aspie are
atheist/agnostic so that just add to the risk factor. Though some consider it junk science there seems to be a higher suicide rates with higher IQ populations. While
aspies are not likley higher in IQ than the general population. Internet users that may have heard of Nikki Bacharach may have higher IQ's.

The weather a factor too. In warm months like May suicide peaks. I think people in the southern hemisphere thats more like Nov/Dec. The weather has been very warm this winter (judging by my current $78 natural gas bill vs a $400 one last year) so that maybe a factor people get more energy in warm weather to knock themselves off.

This is exactly why I think al-Anon is helpful - it allows you to recognize what about your life you have control over, and helps you relinquish control over things you wish you could control but can't.

Like when I started that thread about my dad stealing my booze - I realized that he would drink whether or not my booze was available. However, I felt that it would be appropriate to take measures to prevent him from stealing from me. That one former addict that answered my question actually made a ton of sense in that I am enabling my dad by not locking up the booze. That was the sort of magic bullet answer for me that allowed me to figure out my part of the problem vs. his part of the problem.

I totally think that you should go to Al-Anon. It would help you figure out what parts of life you have control over and what you can do about it.

I just couldn't handle something like AA. I could deal with maybe talking to an individual person, ya know, if they were pretty.