False people - please help!

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I'm writing this because I'm feeling really low and sometimes all I can see is dark. Do you ever feel that everyone is false? Pardon the colloquialism but are people in this life only out for fame and a f**k ?! ! I just don't know who to trust any more. Sometimes people look at me as if they wish me in the dirt.

I'm 20 now and when I was 17 I attempted to take my own life. It was becasue of this actor I had a crush on and it wasn't just I liked him but I felt so angry towards people who from birth new what they were going to do with their life i.e. have the looks to be an actor and do it but don't say anything relevent or witty to the people of their generation, we just see a big picture of them in magazines saying how talented and gorgeous they are and how much they have achieved at such an early age. But it was also because I couldn't see the point. I put two whole sryinge fulls of tranquiliser into some orange juice which I felt would kill me but it didn't - I was in agony for two whole days.

Now, here's the problem, I'd like to end everything now but I can't in fear of it going wrobg! Well, what I'm trying to say is - does anybody actually care in this world? My Grandmother says that of all the nine decades she has been on this earth that this era we live in at the moment is the most selfish and uncaring. Do you agree? Please get me through this dark.

I too feel that this world is one of pure selfishness. You should choose life though! If you end your life, then the evil in the world has won, and that much more light will be gone from the world.

Aw, that's lovely.

I agree; you should choose life. I have been almost as low as you, when you tried to take your life. One thing that helped me was going to www.samaritans.org (which I found through wrongplanet). You can always email them at [email protected] , and someone will write you back. Just remember that you are NOT alone. Even though it's hard to relate to people sometimes, I guarantee that, in every single moment, there is someone in this world who understands you.

Thank you. It's so good to know that the people on this forum understand what I'm going through.

I know what it feels like to be dirt becaues I live in a trailer park and have to live with being called Trailer Trash and sam sam the garbbage can who stuck her head in a frying pan. I hate it when people judge before they get to know them. got 2 go bye.