Late bloomer
ImAnAspie
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Joined: 15 Oct 2013
Gender: Female
Posts: 7,686
Location: Erra (RA 03 45 12.5 Dec +24 28 02)
By the age of 140, you should have bloomed by now
I was a very late bloomer for a male (I'm 47 now). I was always different to the other kids. I never swore. While they were into drugs and girls, I was in the School Library looking up Astronomy. I didn't have my first female encounter until I was 24.
I missed out on a lot growing up and I know I never grew up properly. I see other men all serious and grown up and here's me who still likes to throw rocks, see how far I can flick my cigarette butts and make tiny Samurai swords out of tiny bits of spring steel. Although I am (almost) responsible paying my bills, I'm still very childish and naive on the inside for my age - always have been. I don't think I could live on my own.
I was very naive and trusting when I was younger. It bit me in the butt so many times. Every time I'd get hurt by someone, I'd swear to myself to be more wary next time but I never learned. I was like a little trusting puppy. I'm better now (and have a nicer set of people around me). Live and learn!
I was not slow, in fact, quite the opposite. I even knew my stims were not the usual thing when I was about 5 or 6 and went to great lengths to hide them. I'm quite bright in ways like that! I've got things going on on levels people don't even know exist!
I have had people tell me "She was flirting with you!" and I've never even noticed. That part's a curse.
So is the inability to socialise. I actually prefer not to socialise. I THOROUGHLY ENJOY nights like this where I'm all alone.
But yes, I was a VERY LATE bloomer and I think I've still got some more blooming despite the bloody old age I already am. Perhaps I'll never get there. Oh well. At least I like myself. That's important!
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Your Aspie score: 151 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 60 of 200
Formally diagnosed in 2007.
Learn the simple joy of being satisfied with little, rather than always wanting more.
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