i think this year has been one of the hardest years, even though it's been a lot of change. it's been so hard to adapt to new places and people. i feel like i can't do things, i can't focus. i am so irritable and noise is annoying me more than usual. i wish these people would be more helpful instead of making things worse for me in my life. i have only been wanting to grow, and now i feel like i am being hit back for that!