Feel like I'm annoying

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I feel like I'm an annoying person.

One of my classmates called me "annoying" to the teacher loudly enough for me to hear him during the previous lesson which was chemistry. I don't know what I've done to annoy him. Earlier, he tried to hug me but I shielded myself and cowered away before he could have the chance. My friends went on to pester him to make him give them hugs but I wasn't involved.

In lessons, I prefer to type what I'm about to say to contribute to the discussion then read it aloud, otherwise I often end up stammering, repeating words or pausing in my sentences. I didn't realise that I was typing so loudly until he said to me to stop. I haven't told my teachers that I prefer to do this. Then I made another mistake without intending to, and he had a word with me at the end of the lesson where he went through what is appropriate and inappropriate in lessons. I think that I must've really annoyed him if he wanted a word with me.

My traits are worse today too so I've been stimming more than I usually do. I feel like I should disappear for the day and find somewhere solitary, then maybe I won't annoy people as much.

Nothing wrong with taking a day off.

As far as being annoying, everyone's annoying. Just be flexible and try to accommodate the requests of others. It's a give and take. And a learning experience. My greatest learning insights have often come after moments of extreme embarrassment. I remember once when I was about your age I was coming home from school on the city bus. It was full. I was exhausted (I was desperately trying to pass at the time.) And I ended up sitting next to a girl from school with whom I had little in common. Well, somehow the convergence of these circumstances triggered a loud bout of monologuing on my part. I only stopped when some guy (who looked as though he too was having a bad day) told me to shut up.

I still remember this event clearly. It was incredibly embarrassing. But it was the beginning of my learning how not to monologue.