I resent that I've been born

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I am very bitter that I've been born on to this planet. I'm so tired of being let down and messed around. It's like I'm surplus to requirements and I've just been left to rot. I'm just waiting to die but it's taking for ever. I'm tired of job offers that lead nowhere and men flirting with me and seeming like they're interested just to drop it on me they have a girlfriend/wife or that they've asked someone else out. I can't describe how miserable this makes me. I don't let them know though, as I don't want to give them the satisfaction. People like to cause jealousy and false hope for ego trips. I used to like being flirted with but I hate it now as it just leads to me being s**t on again. I am exhausted and want my torment to end. My head aches and I'm mentally and physically exhausted. I've decided I have to give up on finding anyone. Someone has always got there first. I've just been written off by people and left to rot. There's probably no point writing this as nobody can or will help me but I just wanted to get it off my chest. No matter how I am with people I just get the same s**t.

i hate people too lately. it seems the more i interact with people the more i hate them.

i think it has to do with dominance, people try to dominate each other.

I know it is not good to be alone, but I often wish I had never met certain people, for it ruined my happiness. It would not be a healthy thing to be alone forever as humans are a social species. I get that we all want companionship, but I too wonder what the point is in existing when nobody really notices or cares unless I then do something negative to draw attention my way.

Now with panic signs and anxiety, I feel I would not be able to focus on anything else. That means I will be alone anyway. That support agency that helps me compunded a dire situation, snitching on me about my feelings for people. Of course we are going to get attached to people that appear to be caring, especially as there might be no-one else.