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I'm hearing voices and I'm depressed and I feel anxious. I feel Numb and emotionless maybe from a medication. I feel sad and upset because I don't want to switch my school to a special school for people with mental illness or people with developmental disabilities because I have so many understanding Friends in my school. But I am not functioning well my school and I am not doing well my class I'm currently in Home and hospital and I want to get out of it I want to be back at my old school but I can't do the work at least I don't think so they do have a few autism programs although they think I'm too smart for it but I can't get a regions or a local diploma.

Ironically my voices are guiding me to say this right now if you hear voices does this happen to you? Do your voices guide you to do anything? I want to be in the regular program but I don't think I can and it's not appropriate for my placement right now but I don't want to go to a special school unless maybe I go to a certain school I want to go to. As I mentioned before I just want to be Back to my old self but the hospital abused me and was rough for me and now I don't know if I'll ever get back to where was. I want to be something I want to very north of the book I want to be an advocate or work with one maybe with an aid or partner Like a school aid . But now because I'm so regressed I will never be an advocate sometimes I think it's because I'm too low functioning but I don't know I want to be healthy and not hear voice anymore and not be mentally ill which I am not. Nothing seems to make me happy anymore even my favorite shows and TV I just keep thinking about the hospital and what they did to me.

I'm going to get better but I don't know what to do I'm not mentally ill but I have symptoms From my autism make me mentally ill Like except for hearing voices of course.

I feel so empty inside at least that's the best way I could describe it it's very for me to understand and communicate.

My family is in deep Denial doesn't help either she doesn't think I'm sick I don't even think I'm autistic and I don't know what to say to her especially when her denial is through the roof they may even convince doctors.

May think I'm in a dream world and just imagining that I may have autism and/ora physical or genetic Disorder like cerebral palsy or Down syndrome, Carple tunnel or something else .

You don't have Down's Syndrome or Cerebral Palsy, that's for sure.

I think you really need a neurotypical friend from a regular school. I think this friend would help you navigate the world which you live in.

No...I don't think you should be in a class with the developmentally disabled--not because they're bad people--but because you won't progress academically.

I wish someone could advocate for you, so you could get into something which emphasizes academics, so you could potentially get a Regent's Diploma.

But, when someone advocates for you, you also have to do your part as well. You have to make sure you do your work, and to listen to the teacher. You have to curb at least some of your behaviors, so they won't think you're "special ed." I hate to say it: but you have to try to seem less "autistic." It's not because I think autism's bad--it's because this is reality.

Do you have any credits towards a Regent's Diploma? Have you taken any Regent's? Perhaps you should sign up to take a Regents in something you're good at. If you are at all able, I would really try to take some Regent's tests.

Feel sorry for your situation.

Just stay focussed on getting back to your old school. Hopefully they can make accommodation for you, as I think you will require special needs there until you can recover all your strength and health.

First and foremost is your health. Working through your doctor the most appropriate level of medication that will return you to fully functioning with minimal assistance.

Do you think the voices are from illness or are you lonely? It is very lonely living with family who reject or do not understand.

I think any school where they are kind and try to help and be understanding has the potential to be better than where things are now and better than the hospital. Try not to stress about what school, you don't need that.

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At least you've taken some of the Regents, and you've passed them. I'm glad for that. Your cause is not hopeless.

If you are able to pass Regents, you are almost certainly not developmentally disabled. I'm sure the "people in authority" know that you've passed the Regents.

How many credits for classes do you have so far? At your age, you should be a Junior (it doesn't matter now if you're not a Junior. What matters is that you're making progress toward the Regent's Diploma, even if you're over 18 when you get it).

Maybe if you pass more Regents, the "powers that be" might begin to look at you differently. I wish there was a way for you to get into a more academic setting. Maybe if you show these people that you could sit in class and be calm, maybe they'll start looking at you differently.

You should take the English Regents again. What does the "safety net" mean?

You should take the Global History and US History Regents.

Also: I wish your mother and your grandmother could advocate for you in some way so you could get back into inclusion classes. So you could make progress towards the Diploma.

You're too smart not to get a Regent's Diploma.

You should take at least one science Regents.

If you are able to pass Regents, I don't see how in the name of God you can't graduate high school!! !! !!

If ALL ELSE FAILS, there is always the option to take the GED (General Equivalency Diploma).

You should, one day, take a sample GED to see where you are. I would use that as a last resort, in case all else fails. They have them online.

The GED is not for stupid people. It's a thousand times better than an IEP Diploma.

You have to have a Regent's Diploma for the Armed Forces and for some of the "good" colleges.

Otherwise, for most colleges, the GED is fine. After you've gotten a few college credits, and maintained a decent Grade Point Average, the source of your diploma--whether Regents or GED, won't matter in the least.

Forget about the IEP Diploma--it's pretty worthless. Most, if not all, colleges, don't accept them. It's also worthless if you want a job which requires a high school diploma. Most jobs accept GED's. They like the Regent's diploma better, though.

I think you could take any Regents an infinite amount of times until you pass.

Isn't there some kind of provision for you to take classes while you're in the hospital?

You should look at your transcript to find out how many credits you have accumulated.

I just wanted to let you know that I'm pulling for you to succeed--it is not impossible. In fact, it's very possible.

I wish I had easy solutions.

Some of those solutions must come from yourself, truthfully.

I know you want to be an Autism Advocate--maybe your journey from where you are now to a Regent's Diploma will provide you with the ammunition needed for success as an Autism Advocate.

You would have made the Journey. With that experience, you could help others make the Journey as well.

I was "classically autistic" until I was about 5 years old. Then, for some reason, after I acquired speech, I started becoming "Aspergian" as far as symptoms are concerned.

I am very fortunate. My mother didn't believe the "autism" diagnosis (which was much, much worse than an autism diagnosis today). It was recommended that I be put in an institution. My mother wouldn't have that. During the 1960s, people with the autism diagnosis were considered hopeless cases, always destined for institutionalization.

No...I never heard voices. I was considered 'crazy," though, especially when I went to Junior High (in the 1970s)

I was in Special Ed (in private schools, fortunately) most of my school career.

I didn't get a Regent's Diploma; I got a "regular" one. I barely graduated. There's no such thing as a "regular" diploma these days.

Ii went to college, and got a Bachelor's Degree much later. I graduated with honors.

But what I went through is not relevant to your situation. You have the opportunity to better yourself quicker than I bettered myself.

I just don't want you to "slip through the cracks"--because that is what happens all the time in highly-populated places like the NYC Metropolitan Area.

I'm not saying you have it easy. You don't.

But you have to be part of the solution. You're not a lost cause.

If you've passed the Regents, what makes the doctor think you're incapable of taking the Regents? That makes no sense to me. I believe you should take sample GED's and sample SAT's so you will see where you're at within those tests.

For the SAT, you'll definitely have to improve your writing skills--and perhaps your general knowledge. I suspect you might write okay if you're given time. I think you should edit your writing more.

I was considered crazy because I threw tantrums. I was always getting thrown out of class for calling out the answers. I had no restraint at all. I almost got expelled. They were thinking of putting me in a "group home."

I was put in Special Ed because I was considered "brain-damaged." "Brain-damaged" was a catch-all classification for anybody who would be considered Aspergian, ADHD, "learning disabled," and many other diagnoses today.