Having a Major Panic Attack/Shutdown Now

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Right now I can barely describe my suffering. Since yesterday I have had my husband's annoying 11 year old kid here in our tiny apartment. His coughing kept me awake all night for starters. My husband is completely oblivious to how I am shutting down and having a panic attack here. I am shut away in a room with no windows trying to get work done, but cannot because my palms are sweating and I feel like I am going to collapse. Going outside for air several times has done nothing to help me. To make matters worse, I have washroom phobias, as in I cannot go to the bathroom if people can hear me, and due to the small size of our place they are planted right outside the door of the washroom. Sorry if too much information, but if you have IBS this is especially bad, I'm sure you get the picture. I pay for the groceries and this kid eats through them in no time, I just can't afford it and my husband doesn't understand the stress it puts on me. I am not financially obligated to this kid at all his mother is free-loading off of me which makes me livid and my husband does not see anything wrong with it. Has anyone else had a really bad panic attack before like this, where you just want to run out the door into the rain and keep going down the street to escape your situation? If so, what did you do about it? I'm a nervous wreck, and because this keeps happening, where this kid is foist upon me without so much as asking me, I feel like I have to go live somewhere else which is bad. I can tell I am heading for a shutdown soon if I am not left alone to work in peace and quiet so I can recuperate. My husband is Jamaican and I am Canadian, so I fear there may be a cultural difference there, Aspies are basically disregarded in this land of tough uncaring bitter people and they are very unaccommodating in general. I am afraid he will just label me as a spoiled first world prima donna or something and I don't need the extra stress of that right now. Any advice?

As far as advice i dont know if i can help,im pretty sure we all look for ways to help get through theese tough times and it can seem unatainable at times.The only things that i found that can help me is,confronting the issue-though its not always an option,distraction-music sometimes helps,i go online and read posts and try to respond,it forces me to think of something different,or shuting out the sounds that other me(ear plugs)and the only other is time-which kind of sucks.

Secondly and part of thereason i responded is the wash room issues.i knew i wasnt alone in having this and totally understand ibs or whatever and all.It can be quite a burden,especially if nobody knows,and makes things in public difficult.
My sister has the entire house to sit down with her laptop but she always takes the the chair right outside the wr.door,i hate it.so i know what thats like.sorry i couldnt be more help than that.

Yeah the washroom thing is a big one for me, I'm quite neurotic about privacy and when you are in a 3 room apartment there is really nowhere else for an extra person to sit but outside the washroom door which is just awful for me. In the end the stress won out for me and I was unable to even get any work done because of this situation which costs me money and produces more stress.