...I thought of various Bad Things Which Happened To Me/Things I Missed , none of them more recent thaan me being 26 or so - They kind of boiled down to " Why , Mommy , why ? " , yes , I even said " Mommy " , basically for " never having really gone to college " , and ' Why , Daddy , why ? " , for something I have never talked about here - & still have not .
I did cry/whine quite a lot , I did some letting out , at one point someone went by me saying " Nobody wants to hear that ! This is Thanksgiving ! " but I said " I have things to cry about " , he at least went away ~ Another person stopped by , I said " For a one-line explanation ,~ ' I didn't really get to go to college ' " , after a few moments I waved at him to go away , he did , he said " get your foot treated " or similar , I said " I try to " ~ .
I did whine/cry quite a bit (I'm sure the " WAUGHH ! " sound I make can be fingernails-on-the-blackboard to many 's ears .) , I did let out soe actual tears , it was nice , the brief ray of sun was finished by then .
The thing that I describe as " Why , Daddy , why " is something that you might be more sympathetic to/feel sorry for me beyond " not-going-to-college " , incidentally . I really was a BIG , big , hurt .
I've been warned by the Admins here , perhaps I'll be thrown out ...........