Too old to be angry at Parents

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I'm 32, and out of left field these past few weeks, i've been feeling very upset... very angry at the way my parents raised me... It's a little late to feel anger towards my parents, especially since my mother passed away years ago and my father is 10 years into retirement.... it's out of left field.... it's odd... but it's very real too.

I feel like they have made a very poor effort at raising me to become independent or happy. My mother dealt with a lifetime of chronic depression and so did my father and they raised me to be their little puppy... someone they kept around to feel useful. They did not teach me how to do the simplest of things... they spent very little time playing with me as a kid... or teaching me anything useful (mostly superstitions, bigotry, bitterness, fear of strangers, blaming others for their failures, etc) and a lot of info that may have been valid and useful when I was a kid in their little town, but is useless and even damaging in this mordern world

I feel bitter that people in my family look at me and judge me for my failures, when these failures are a result of bad upbringing and several generations worth of documented depression (or depressed lifestyles).

My grandfather was poor his whole life.. my father made a little money for a while, but now he's poor again, and myself, i'm looking at a life full of poverty too. It's not lazyness that has caused it in my family.. we all worked a lot.. i work 10hr days of often times back-breaking work... what has caused mutli generations of poverty is the fact that we can't communicate or relate to people properly.. what sort of chance do you have to succeed in a community built and run by people when you cannot even understand or communicate with them?

So here I am... angry. Not just at myself anymore, but at my parents for raising me to be so dysfunctional and miserable.

I've met aspies on my level, and they're not all as dysfunctional as I am... upbringing is everything.

parents: Don't be easy on your kids. Just don't. Be Disciplined. Set rules, and Teach by example. don't blame others for your problems, don't be bitter, and don't teach your kids to distrust.

One can never be too old to be angry at their parents. From what I read, you have every right to be. I lived a very similar story to yours except both parents are still living. My father was passive while my mother was basically a female General Patton. I am still very upset that because of my mother's denial, my AS was never addressed. They say they wanted me to have a normal life. I tried and failed. I can't go into more detail because I have only 60,000 characters I can use, but long story short you are never to old to have feelings in general, and anger specifically. Anger is both good annd bad. It depends on how you use the anger.