Do I have schizotypal disorder or even schizophrenia?

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An example of coinidences observed by me. I notice coincidences about second half of September 2014, about four months later I received diagnosis of schizotypal disorder. Many of coincidences was about Aspijkas (female Aspies).

3.8.2015 or 4.8.2015 - I watched a film about a black cat on FC Barcelona's football pitch. Earlier I watched another film on YouTube after writing "blak cat coincidence" in Google. After watching a film about "gato negro" (it means "black cat" in Spanish) on FC Barcelona's pitch, I watched a film about 10 "attacks" of animals in football. I remembered a fragment about an unpleasant incident during a football match in Panama. At some moment players felt on the ground. Fans also have problems because of the attack. I noticed the word which was spoken like [vehas] and I could suppose that it would mean "wasps" ([vehas] was for me somewhat similar to "wasps"), so I could think that it was an attack of wasps. 8.8.2015 - I found in the Internet that Spanish word for "wasp" is "avispa", which has not so similar pronunciation to [vehas]. So I searched about Spanish name of a similar insect - the bee. "Bee" is "abeja" in Spanish, its pronunciation is similar to [vehas], so it was an attack of bees. 8.8.2015 - I watched end of Polish television quiz show named "Familiada" about 2:20 p.m. in TV. Last question in the final was about calling an example of beautiful/nice insect (Polish: ładny owad). First person said "pszczoła" (bee), second said "osa" (wasp). "Bee" has 12 - 19 points (I do not remember how much), "wasp" has 6 points. They were not the most popular answers ("butterfly" (Polish: motyl) was the most popular answer). I could think that it was associated with me, with my wathing of "memorable" fragment about attack of bees in Panama during a football match at the beginning of last week. It may look for some people like an idea of reference.

8.8.2015 -my grandmother places before the window whih is very close to the computer a table, on the side which was "visible" form the chair near the computer there was a periodic table in which iron (Fe, atomic number 26) was clearly seen. At about noon I watched the program about iron on Discovery Science. About 7 p.m. I watched films about funny moments from TV quiz games on YouTube. One of the situation was about the vitamin responsible for blood coagulation. The aswer of the person who was asped was "iron", but iron is not a vitamin, but a (metallic) chemical element. So I had coincidnece about iron. I watched Discovery Science and Familiada when my sister used the computer. I think that without "lack of access" to the computer the coincidences about bees/wasps and iron would not happen or would be much "weaker".

"I do not know what to write"... For my mentality everyone is less kooky than me. Some phenomena observed in my mentality are extraordinarily whacky, such as my chldhood-onset sexual derailment, perversions. My mentality might think that a person has to be really NUTTY to experience such a stupidity. Do I know who I am? I am not like typical autistic or schizophrenic. Even more not like "common" people. I am "afraid of life". Enviromental issues are really problematic for me. For my mentality things which are done by members of my family are stupid. Sexual and religious problems, environmental issues may be really "damaging" for my level of functioning. Not just PDD and mental illness. But trying to live like a "common" human might end funny in my case and other people could easy recognise me as an "abnormal" individual.

I was taken by an ambulance to a psychiatrist last week. I was taken from a place which could be described as "full of people". It was in a city which is located quite far from my home. The visit was short and I was "freed" after it. My family does not know about this incident (at least as far I know). I had this "adventure" because of my serious spiritual problems. My religion is very hard for me. My mentality is "not so compatible" with it. I have "fear" of confession and suffering. I think that people like me needs really special treatment. Help is necessary for them. My mentality might be "proud" and "happy" because of being taken by an ambulance to the psychiatrist due to serious religious issues. It might help to imagine how serious this problem is. I do not think that my religion is wrong.

My case looks very odd. I talked with a psychologist who said that something she had never seen something like my condition before. And she also say that she has compassion on me. On my certificate of disability (orzeczenie o niepełnosprawności) it was written that I am incapable of work (niezdolny do pracy). I do not know what to do in my life. Religion is especially "hard" area for me. Most people with "aspieness" about who I read appear to be non-religious. I think that I have "antitalent" to be a monk or priest. Being a monk or a priest looks totally inompatible with my nature. My mentality lives in the world in own, atypical way. Even autistic and schizophrenics may be named by my mentality as "normal" ones. I have "fear" of pain, of annihilation, damnation. My mentality appreciates comfort of existence much.

I had some coincidences about one of Aspijkas about I read earlier few days ago. That day in which the coincidences occurred was her birthday, and it was a "round" birthday. I knew about her birthday before that day.

1. In public communication about 10 a.m. that day I saw a photography from the city which in country which is quite far from Poland. In this city that Aspijka had studied.
2. I was in a seat of an regional department that day also and I saw name and surnames of a woman who had two first letters of her name the same as two first letter of name of that Aspjka. Last letter of her name was also the same, but it is not something unusual, because in Poland (almost) all women have names which end on "a". And first surname of that woman was the same that the surname of that Aspijka who had a birthday that day!
3. I talked with a woman who had the same name as that Aspijka about 5 p.m. - 6 p.m. that day. First letter of the surname of that woman was associated in my mind with one of nicks of that Aspijka. That woman gave me a card with her surname and phone number to the institution(?) in which I met her.
4. About 7 p.m. I walked on the street which has name formed from the name of a city in Poland which is associated with that Aspijka. When I started to ride by bus to my locality, I saw an umbrella with the "advertisement" of beer produced by a brewery from that city.
5. About midnight (probably before midnight) I opened new tube of toothpaste because in the bathroom which is located near my room there was no toothpase. On the "pack" with the toothpaste there were writings in language used in the foreign and quite distant country in which that Aspijka studied! The language which was used on the "pack" was not an Indo-European language, this country does not belong to European Union.

Yesterday about 9 p. m. I had coincidences again. I typed in Google two first letters of the nick of one of Polish AS forum members who write above 3500 posts and looked at the first page of results. I also typed part of a four-word phrase in a non-Indo-European language and in suggestion in Google I saw this phrase with one additional word in the end, this word without diarictic signs is the same as two first letters of a nick mentioned earlier in this post. This word means "woman" in this non-Indo-European language. This word in one of Internet Polish-English dictionaries had meanings like "kook" and "madman" (this word was English, it is very common English word). I do not think that this two-letter word in English really means "kook" or "madman" (Polish: "świr" or "wariat").

I looked at another forum in which this member writes posts. On this forum he had an animal in avatar. Just below one of his posts there was a post of a female member of this another forum. On another web page (it was not a forum) I saw something coincident in the comments. One of earliest comments which I saw yesterday about 9 p. m. I saw consisted of two words. First one was... the two letters about which I wrote above and second one was... the nick of a woman (who had a "profile" of a female (which was drawn, not photographed) in avatar) who write the post below a post of "this man"... Both these words were written using only "small" letters - in nicks of this man and this woman they are also written without any capital letters.

On the page with comments I saw another coincidence later. Three newest comments were about words which had the same two letters at the beginnings, and third letters of these three words were consonants. The "highest" word had "t" on the end, second had "p" on the end, third had "m" on the end. T was first letter on the keyboard on older mobile phones under digit 8, P was first letter on the keyboard on older mobile phones under digit 7, M was first letter on the keyboard on older mobile phones under digit 6. Sequence: 8 - 7 - 6. Three consequent natural numbers. First and second word had three letters (voiceless consonants ("t" and "p" at their ends), third was longer (had 7 letters). First word is the Polish name of the animal which was in the avatar on the forum mentioned in "second part" of this post of this man.

I think that it is "really bad" with me. I am full of existential, eschatological fears, doubts and anxiety.

My mentality "opposes" to all religions and may think that they are all evil. It dislikes religious rituals, customs, dogmas, writings etc. For my autistic mentality religion is a "prison", not something helping in life. Mentality agrees with monotheism, chastity, benevolence (their are logical for it) but not with confession of sins, eternal damnation, long prayers, strict rituals. My mentality has not the nature of an atheist, but of a heretic. My autistic mentality wants to be free of religious obligations, customs, dogmas.

My "maltreated" by existential and eschatological dread mentality may have ideas that I am The Highest Being and everything and everybody else is just my creation. Obviously I disagree with this blasphemous idea. The Highest Being is impeccatible and imapssible (He can't sin and suffer). I am not. My autistic mentality is "bonkers" because of "terror" in heart. It may be afraid of annihilation of "me" ("I"). I read a lot about religions in my life. I eperienced many doubts. I concluded that there is "the great confusion" among religious people. My mentality does not believe in reincarnation and atheism, but I might have such temptations. I have various temptations. Generally, I do not experience clear, physical signs of unclean spirits and hallucinations. My magical obsession may look like a form of sorcery and I do not want to be a sorcerer.

Typical schizophrenia spectrum conditions are significantly other than my experience.

Someone on Polish AS forum wrote that I am a standard "schizo" and when I would show that forum to a psychatrist, I would receive F20 (code of schizophrenia in ICD-10). That person also suspected that I will end in psychiatric belts on some time. Another person wrote agreed with that opinion.

Two people who are on autistic spectrum thought that I have schizoprenia and delusions, not just schizotypy or obsessions. I would name my condition a sort of schizophrenia, but I also name it as a sort of aspieness, which is significantly different from "bookish" Asperger's (which looks rather like a high-functional form of autistic disorder from DSM-IV).

I had blatantly bizarre thoughts saying that "I am the Highest Being who created everything", my ill mentality had something which can be similar to some sort of "liking" to this crackpot ideas. I think that these thoughts are obvious signs of mental illness. They are not like "unpleasant obsessions" to my mentality. I think that these thoughts are results of satanic influence. I think that (at least some) cases of mental illnesses (especially schizophrenia) are caused by actions of unclean spirits, not by disturbances in brain or its functioning.

My psychiatrist wrote that I have delusions on certificate for commissions deciding about my "level of disability" and giving right to reeiving social pension despite lack of diagnosis of schizophrenia, persistent delusional disorder, schizoaffective disorder (I reeived just diagnosis of schizotypal disorder and I did not found ("true") delusions among them. Maybe my coincidences were delusions for my psychiatrist or she wanted to made my illness "worse" for commissions (I am afraid of it). I conluded that I definitely should receive social pension and I am in fact severely mentally ill (although this illness is "benign").

One of important persons from Polish AS forum wrote that I have full-blown psychotic episode (Polish: "pełnoobjawowy epizod psychotyczny"). Other person from other forum wrote that "autism strikes from every my post". I would not say that I am high-functioning. My social life "almost does not exist". I have not occupational experience. Religious rules (such as necessity of examination of conscience and confessing of mortal sins) are like big "barriers" from me. I am very "afraid" of going to Hell and my mentality "can't" believe in it because it looks "too scary" for it. I had "delusional ideas" about other people's anatomy or physiology.

I have (something like) "rapid thinking". I have poroblems in writing posts or something alike. I have general problem with functioning. I "crave" "one-sided interactions with my rules", but my mentality is not interested in "tpical" socialisation. It wants "to auger" other people. I do not like when someone is aggressive towards me or blocks my one-sided interaction. People are like "toys" to one-sided interaction on my rules for my mentality. My mentality "do not understand" "common way of life". It "first philosophised, later lives".

I am clearly different than typical Aspie and typical indivdual with schizophrenia or intellectual disability (I do not have ID). For me I may look as poor, ret*d schizo. I "can't" imagine "normalcy", "psychotypicality".

I have religious reflection which looks AMAZING last times. They are even more "incredible" than my coincidences which were very numerous.

I have an idea that my condition is The Menill (menill - shortening of "mentall illness") and The Aucory (aucory - "shortening" of aucorigia ("aucorigia" - term coined form "autoconrast" and "originiality" which means "Asperger's and similar conditions" (like "social NVLD", "social learning disability", HFA, "schizotypal autisms" etc.)), The Hiddis (hiddis - shortening of "hidden disability"), The Mental Oddness (TheMenOdd, themenodd, TMO) and it is The Parent of all menills, aucories, hiddises and mental oddnesses.

TMO is a supernatural phenomenon and looks to be "a mysterious "scourge" of Providence".

My level of functioning is still not so high. No progress in functioning. 09.02.2016 a psychiatrist wrote something about paranoid schizophrenia in a ard about my case, but I do not know if it was a diagnosis (or maybe it was just a suspicion). My thoughts may look as referential, grandiose delusions. There is a "disaster" in my mentality.

I noticed "mysterious 21.7 coincidence" in my life.

7.10.2014 a visit with my former psychiatrist was planned, but it was postponed to 21.10.2014 (that day the visit took place in fact).

Next visits with that doctor took place at: 27.1.2015, 28.4.2015, 21.7.2015 and 8.12.2015.

I received interesting diagnoses at 28.4.2015. F84.5 (Asperger's syndrome), F42.2 (mixed obsessive-compulsive disorder), F21 (schizotypy). Look at the numbers - there are geometric sequences in them and associations with numbers: 7 and 21...
84.5
42.2
21

Numbers: 21, 42, 84 form a geometric sequence:
21 = 21*2^0 = 21*1 = 21
42 = 21*2^1 = 21*2 = 42
84 = 21*2^2 = 21*4 = 84

Sums of digits in numbers: 21, 42, 84 also form a geometric sequence:
2+1 = 3 = 3*2^0 = 3*1 = 3
4+2 = 6 = 3*2^1 = 3*2 = 6
8+4 = 12 = 3*2^2 = 3*4 = 12
Sum of the numbers: 3, 6, 12 is 21, and their arithmetical mean is 7!

First digits from numbers: 21, 42, 84 also form a geometric sequence:
2 = 2*2^0 = 2*1 = 2
4 = 2*2^1 = 2*2 = 4
8 = 2*2^2 = 2*4 = 8

Second digits from numbers: 21, 42, 84 also form a geometric sequence:
1 = 1*2^0 = 1*1 = 1
2 = 1*2^1 = 1*2 = 2
4 = 1*2^2 = 1*4 = 4

Sum of numbers: 21, 42, 84 is 147 which is 21*7!

Sum of numbers: 2, 4, 8 is 14, which is 7*2.
Sum of numbers: 1, 2, 4 is 7, which is 7*1.
Sum of the sums of digits in three numbers: 21, 42, 84 is 21 is 21 (2 + 1 + 4 + 2 + 8 + 4 = 3 + 6 + 12 = 21)!

Put the sum of first digits in numbers: 21, 42, 84 (sum of 2, 4, 8 is 14) before the sum of second digits in numbers: 21, 42, 84 (sum of 1, 2, 4 is 7) and you will receive 14 and 7 ---> 147 ---> 147, which is the sum of 21, 42, 84!

Sum of digits before "." in my diagnoses from 28.4.2015: 2 + 1 + 4 + 2 + 8 + 4 = 21
Sum of digits after "." in my diagnoses from 28.4.2015: 2 + 5 = 7
So it forms "<21.7>"! Date of my next "ambulatory" visit was 21.7.2015. My previous (28.4.2015 is named as the date of "present" "ambulatory" visit here) "ambulatory" visit took place at 27.1.2015.
21+7=27+1=28
Write these three dates in chronological order, latter below earlier...
27.1.2015
28.4.2015
21.7.2015
In the "row" for month "147" is formed, 147 is the sum of 21, 42, 84!

I watched an audition (it was not so clever audition, however because of its content, I disagree strongly with its "beliefs" and ideas, which are for me "stupid") at 18.12.2015 (twenty-first century, fifteenth year of that century, twelfth month of that year, eighteenth day of that month), between 5 p.m. and 6 p.m. (in the time zone in my country) and I received mysterious coincidences because of it! Few weeks earlier I watched the same audition (but another topic was discussed), also between 5 p.m. and 6 p.m., at the same day of the week and at the same channel, that day the audition was about an inventor who was named as "megakook" (translation from Polish) by an Aspijka whose blog I quite often read (she wrote that that inventor would have received OCD diagnosis, if not AS diagnosis in recent time) and during that audition I heard about three numbers which form an arithmetical sequence (are three first numbers in that sequence) in which 21 is the 7th "number" of that arithmetical sequence!