Home-schooled for 3 years, always bullied in school, help?

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How the heck do you make friends when:

1. You've been homeschooled for 3 years.
2. You were bullied all the time in public school, especially in middle school.
3. You're depressed, sometimes to the point you want to kill yourself.
4. You tend to hate people. (can't stand the stuff people do nowadays, it gets infuriating and ridiculous)
5. You practically no chance to meet anyone else who is autistic, like yourself.
6. You moved away from the general area where you knew lived in.
7. You have friends only on the internet.

Even though a lot of stuff people do gets on my nerves, I feel desperate for human friends. Due to number 5, they're probably going to have to be neurotypical. There was only one other person I knew who could've been autistic. And I have no contact with them or anyone else I used to know. Sometimes, I wish I can be in contact with them, I miss some of them. Noting 4, sometimes I can be afraid of people.

Great, looking at this post, now I feel hopeless about making friends.

I'm sorry to hear that you had to go through that. If you want to make friends with others on the spectrum, then maybe you could join an autism meetup group, where you can meet other individuals with autism.

You just moved, am I correct? Think of that as a fresh start. No one knows you. I suggest try and make an effort to get to know people. You don't have to try and befriend everyone, just be friendly, say hi, good morning etc. Introduce yourself to new neighbours maybe? Try not to be dependent on the internet for friendships. It will only temporarily help your situation, but later on it will just cause you to draw into a shell even more, making the depression and loneliness problem worse.

If the depression is really bad, then maybe you could go talk to a counselor and maybe they could help you move forward and help your self confidence.

I was bullied and harassed quite a bit in middle school, I would go into periods of depression where I just shut out everyone. It took time and a few attitude changes to move forward. I am in Grade 10 now, and I am doing relatively well. I don't have that many friends, I have a few close friends only, but thats okay with me cuz I choose quality over quantity. Hope this helps!

I recommend martial arts. Besides the physical skills, many practitioners develop greater confidence and patience. Plus since many aspies have attention to detail, you can bond over the perfectionism a lot of long-time martial artists develop.

Plus sparring may help with number 4.

This. I have been doing martial arts for 4 1/2 years now and I have really benefitted from it. It has helped my coordination, flexibility, and I am much more confident than before I started. I'm testing for my black belt in a few months now. I would recommend for anyone on the spectrum.

I'm not sure how old you are, but I hit rock bottom this summer. The two things that have helped the most are

1)joining a few meetup.com groups. Without exception, they are EXCELLENT groups and there are many socially awkward people in them so you will be accepted and understood by most.

2)joined a run club. Not only for the obvious physical aspect, but the fact most runners are terrific people. Granted most of them are older than me but still a great group I look forward to seeing twice a week! There are always 'learn to run' groups and they are very accepting and friendly.

I actually tried to form friendships with diagnosed Aspies/Auties and I hate to say it but they generally drive me crazy. They generally can't see past their own interests and expect you to conform to them. The best potential friendship I am developing is with a guy who is obviously ADHD and ironically enough, is my exes ex-boyfriend. Small world!

As for being afraid of people, I found years ago joining Toastmasters helped a lot in that area. They were generally very positive and accepting of my social awkwardness at the time and I overcame my fear of public speaking completely!

Not in my case.

Back when I attempted it (10 years ago) I had the teacher furiously threaten me in front of a full class to ban me from the practice as I couldn't keep up with the common group routine exercises that everyone else there did effortlessly and the individual exercises were also a dead-end street for me from stage one which is frustrating especially witnessing all my co-practitioners individually evolve day by day while I couldn't get past the start for the life of me as it required fine motoric skills which I (as an aspie) obviously lacked.

I quickly dropped out because I couldn't handle it anymore physically and mentally and I received a final email by the teacher who felt like giving his whole unprocessed thought about the situation, which was rapidly followed by my mum disclosing my autism diagnosis to him just to give him some insight and calm him down.

I have had this situation at therapy groups myself.
What i recommend, as cliche as it sounds, is to avoid attention seeking. Take a deep breath, oxidate your digestive system and brain. That is the first step. Avoid indulgences. Become a person worth respecting.
Fast (recycle nutrients in your body). Lift weights. Apply yourself.

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