post meltdown/shutdown bliss

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I don't know if I'm explaining this well. I worka shitty minimum wage job, and we sometimes get very busy and my brain goes haywire and I become really dysfunctional, making stupid mistakes. And once I make one mistake, it means i'll start making others and dropping things and being very rude and dismissive and i can't do anything or deal with anything and my words get jumbled. Following that, a sort of shift happens and i get very quiet and unresponsive or ill talk very quietly and calmy, and i just feel like i'm really not working at all.

But then following that, there's another shift once I've calmed down and collected myself and work slowed down. I'm still very quiet and dysfunctional, but now it feels kind of good, like it's tranquil. It feels better than i did even before work got busy, only i don't talk at all or look at anybody and i just stare at the floor mostly

Could you be experiencing sensory overload and the 'bliss' is when it's become so overwhelming that you've shut down?

I know this is a fairly old post but sometimes I feel like that too. If I shutdown very badly I struggle to talk or move though. I wonder why

I have a "bliss" period after some meltdowns. Especially the angry/depressed crying ones where I've also had mental overload and sometimes sensory overload with it. I'll have a huge meltdown that lasts a few days because every little thing will set it off again. Have had to stay home where I can get into a dark, quiet closet when it starts up again. The bliss part didn't hit til the day after that last really bad meltdown weekend I had. I also have them after the sort of overloads/meltdowns you are talking about as well now that I think about it. I feel like a spider's web after, delicately spread out and calm, and almost peaceful. I don't know if it's classified as a shutdown as I can still go about my business. It's as if the anxious, nervous, hyper responsive, emotional, side of my brain has just shorted out and shut off while the calm, cool collected side just goes about my business. Like my psyche knows I am just a spider web and that it can't stomp and tirade anymore or else the web will break. I have no compulsion or need to talk and actually find it kind of like pushing through jelly if I have to talk. I also feel sort of cocooned away from the outside world like the outside is buffered. Then I crave hiding under a heavy blanket in cool dark and sleeping. My husband calls these things shutdowns I think but I don't know if these for me are what are classed as shutdowns in the ASD sense so I can't say anything about that.