Violent Thoughts & Urges

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Hello,
For the past month, I have been having more constant thoughts about personally harming others. These thoughts somewhat randomly throughout the day, sometimes much more than others. It is typically me murdering or otherwise harming a stranger in a specific way. ( Ex. Shooting in the head with a gun, pouring boiling oil on someone)
I've never been one to be randomly violent, but neither am I against it. I tend not to be against controversial things including death, such as partial-birth abortion and torture. However, I almost never act out violently in anger in public, although I may have satisfying thoughts of maiming someone I may have a grudge against.
I currently see therapy once a week on my parents requests, as they believe I have a form of depression (I don't believe so, no suicidal thoughts or any real sadness at all), and have never dared to bring this up. I will often lie to my parents and therapist about such issues, fearing possible law involvement if I went too far.

I am 16, jobless, and live a fairly normal life (Although I despise highschool, and wouldn't mind dropping out). and have never been diagnosed with anything. But as I stated, I am a very apathetic person in most scenarios and questions put to me. I would greatly appreciate any answers, as I should say I don't mind these urges (Not to sound "edgy"), simply wondering their origin and cause.

Thank you in advanced!

Random intrusive thoughts could be OCD.

For me I get violent thoughts when anxious. I might start to feel unsafe on the street and nervous around a person then in my head I'm doing awful things to them. I'm careful with who I tell this stuff to as well.

How do you feel before you have the thoughts? If you don't know/remember try to get better at noticing what your emotions are like before you have a thought.

My best guess is OCD but it may be something else.

hi, I don't have this problem but I just happened to have listened to a story on a radio program about a man suffering from constant thoughts of doing violent acts (even when he was at work!), he was just married and he kept getting thoughts about hurting his wife enter his head even though he loved her. He tells his story. It was on an NPR Program called Invisibilia, you should listen to it, it's about half an hour long, here's the link:

http://www.npr.org/2015/01/09/375928124/dark-thoughts

I'm not working for anyone or trying to promote anything, I just happened to hear that the other day and then I saw this thread and thought it'd be the perfect thing to mention in this thread, I thought maybe people interested in this thread would also be interested in hearing it. In the program the doctors do say he had a form of OCD.

(btw the other story they have on there "Locked In Man" is very interesting too, maybe a little depressing though. This guy was trapped in his own mind with no way to tell anyone he was awake, and he was in that situation for years! the link for that is http://www.npr.org/2015/01/09/375928581/locked-in-man)

I've had a phase where I thought about harming others & myself due to OCD.

Many thanks, but I am not sure about OCD.

I'm not sure if I would have an other symptoms of OCD. The only thing certainly obsessive was when I was a bit younger, I used to hate odd numbers with passion, getting angry at the test score of 97%, ect.
I don't believe I'm a particularly neat person, although I know that isn't necessary of those with OCD.
To be completely honest, I'm probably as far as a perfectionist, orderly person in every aspect I can think of
right now.

I don't discredit it, I've just been very unsure of myself lately. Feeling like I know nothing about myself. It's
difficult to explain. Sorry for lack of personal context, I'm, just a blank at this moment.

The violent urges continue, however. They don't really horrify or disgust me, they are just...there.

Thank you all!

I didn't finish my studies so I'm in no way qualified to diagnoze anyone. That being said in my own case I find that these urges stem from pent up frustration. The cause of these are usually obsticals you can't overcome, people that annoy you, offend you, or negative thinking.

I often find it useful to act these frustrations out in a safe way. Violent video games are great, even better is using some of that frustration constructively and exercising, you'll be amazed how much better you'll feel.

I highly recommend looking in to meditation and mindfulness.

Be mindful of your thoughts and consider whether or not these thoughts are beneficial or not.