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Raleigh: What I really meant was, having to learn everything all over again; becoming a 'baby' soul and having to work up to 'adult' or higher again.


It would, admittedly be nice to be a cat.

^ but, can you see, a baby soul would still feel as though it were top order?
There would be no 'waste'.
There is no waste in nature or the universe.

^ yes.

I had two days of rock eye candy that transported me into rock ecstasy.
If I died on that walk I'd die one happy hiker.

mom has died. the next oldest sister and I are doing okay, but my younger two are crumbling. we're concerned about them.

^ I'm very sorry, cathylynn.
Loving hugs to you and your family.

I think that, out of all the Final Fantasy games, VI, VII, IX, and X explored the themes of life and death the most. That is one reason why those four are my favourites.


Oh, Cathylynn. If there was more I could do...I would help you every bit of the way.

There's nothing wrong with crumbling.
Its no more concerning than being stoic.
It's a different expression of grief, that's all.

It's amazing. Just two sentences from my mum was enough to make my energy fall and for me to start yelling at myself again. I'm still trying to recover, and the terrible thing is that it was an incredibly mundane thing she asked me to do.

^ my mother has that effect on me as well.

^Really? How curious.

I wish I could tell her how much she effects me like that, but I'm not sure how.

My mother sucks out my energy like a vampire and leaves me drained.
I told her once she was too loud and invasive and she did modify her behaviour for about a day but then went back to being herself again.
She's loud, throws her hands around, gets in my face, drills me with questions, projects all her anxieties and negativity onto me, then leaves me in a heap.

Yikes!
Now I kind of feel bad for complaining about something that is tame in comparison.

I try not to complain...I try not to be selfish...I try not to be arrogant...I try not to be assuming....yet in trying so hard, I end up being all of those things.

I am also unsure how to give love to myself, exactly.

What did your mother say to upset you?

She said, after I had not done the three-activity programme I was supposed to do earlier today and instead got distracted and was trying to concentrate on something, "If you do not do it now, we will do the whole thing [*the full seven activity programme*] before you go to bed tonight. So do it now, please." My concentration collapsed like a house of playing cards and my energy instantly fell. I then burst into tears for no apparent reason, and cried while doing the programme, so I'm not sure I helped myself any.

Yes, it was that mundane. *holds head in hands*

why was that so upsetting to you?