After struggling with depression and ideation of suicide going back to when I was 10, I finally beat it a couple of years ago by addressing the root causes. Meds do not do that, so I didn't bother with them. Ended up tearing down my old life and rebuilding it.
For me, the toughest thing to deal with about depression has been the anhedonia---nothing feels "fun". If you took me to Disneyland, I just wouldn't get that endorphin rush that others around me seem to get. The only activity that brings me any pleasure is when I'm making something out of metal or wood. My depression and thoughts of suicide are gone, but the anhedonia still lingers. Apparently my years of depression did permanent damage to my reward mechanism.
Anyone else who struggled with depression have this issue?
09 Jan 2017, 10:26 am
