Sedaka wrote:
i get embarassed in the sense... that now i know about As... i catch myself doing things... and i wonder how many dorky things i've been doing in front of people for the other 24 yrs i didn't know about AS
What Sedaka said. Except for me it's 27 years.
Looking back, I can see a LOT of things I did that were very embarrassing and were probably because of my AS.
For example, there was an incident when I was 16 and I got my first job at a movie theater. On my first day a guy came up to me and asked if I would like to clean the popcorn maker. I said no. He kind of laughed nervously and left. A girl I worked with whispered to me that he was my supervisor. I hadn't been told about a supervisor by the manager who hired me- I hadn't been given any kind of introduction to anyone- and I wasn't even sure whether to believe her because people loved to take advantage of my gullibility and I never knew whether anything anyone told me was the truth, so I defaulted to thinking everything was a lie. I realized much later that he probably
was my supervisor and he had actually been
telling me to clean the popcorn maker, not asking if I
wanted to.
And that's an obvious incident! What about the myriad more subtle ones? No wonder I have trouble making friends and fitting in!!