I'm afraid of having cancer
The notion of it is:
If you have hit rock bottom and have nothing going for you in life, a cancer diagnosis might be a relief or a blessing because you know how low your life can get and you have experienced what its like to live with depression and feel like cancer is your salvation whether it brings you and your family together or the attention you desperately needed because you've been living through tough times.
On the other hand if your life has gone well, no ailments to slow you down, living in perfect health and harmony, your mind is conditioned to having good fortune bestowed upon you, and believe good deeds have led to good rewards; you fear that you lose all that you have gained in your life because you have the belief that cancer is the worst thing that could ever happen.
TLDR: Less fortunate people tend to accept cancer into their lives, more fortunate tend to be afraid more because they lead their lives in a positive outlook because everyone knows money can buy happiness.
Ah, yes, I can definitely relate to this. I have had SO many health scares (mostly unfounded) which have resulted in many unpleasant anxiety and even panic attacks. I would Google symptoms and get worked up by overthinking the possibilities. Lesson learned... do not Google symptoms if you're like me and have GAD
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i have a huge nodule on my thyroid, it's seems to be a common thing and not necessary cancer... but when it's only one and big it seems (accordingly to the internet) most probably to be a cancer... i did some tests and i'll go to my doctor next week so i'll figure out what it is or maybe will need even more tests, i don't know
Go to your doc and have them check you over, if you're a healthy specimen and don't have a terminal illness they will surely address your rampant anxiety, I know how it goes when fearing imminent death everyday, it's very harsh but each minute we are breathing without hassle is to be treasured, you deserve to know and be treated as well as possible if you have big problems and you deserve to have peace of mind if your body is hanging in there unaffected.
I know it – although mine have certain characteristics that are more dangerous to be cancerous, I'll need to make a FNA to check if it's cancerous or not. Also, I know even if it's cancer, this kind of cancer is often easy to deal with. It's just so slow to have a diagnosis :/
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yeah i know huh.
for over 4 years, i have had 1 to 3 daily bowel movements. they take 30 minutes to 2 hours each. that could not possibly be healthful. numerous precious lil "people" have had the nerve to ask me "are you ok?". employees and security guards have had the nerve to kick me out the bathroom for taking too long.
Food Maxx, nordstroms, cafe leila, performance bikes, tuesday morning, walmart, starbucks, petco, bed bath and beyond
and then i google symptoms: fecal impaction, bowel obstruction, colon cancer
a lot of matches come up. constipation is pretty common. but many times it's just constipation.
and then i take the most dramatic disease and fantasize about it.
but seriously though already went to six (6) different doctors.
none of them helped.
laxatives, stool softeners
drink five daily liter water, exercise, stress at a practical minimum, going to psychological counseling, eating regularly, eating more or less healthfully, eating fruit/veg
and it's not getting better
and as usual i am paranoid that if it continues like this it will end up a full blockage or something
and the medical bills will be much higher than the welfare checks and panhandling proceeds
and then what?
and then some dangerous painful surgery. procedure. required. just. to. continue. living
and then need an ostomy bag
or can't get out of bed
and can't pay the bills
but i ain't a medical doctor
and even medical doctors often give wrong diagnoses
and i ain't psychic either
so maybe it's unreasonable to expect never to have any symptoms.
but whatever
today, vomitted. and constipation, clinical depression, anxiety, exhaustion.
no other symptoms
vommitted what looked like inari sushi and apple/banana
really paranoid
afraid
anxious
hateful, sad, angry, annoyed, scared, weird, worried
that it is a disease with expensive treatment
and that i can't afford the treatment
and i have to sit on the sidewalk with a sign that says need $$ to pay off expensive colorectal cancer surgery
and have to harass every stranger that hobbles by
and have to beg and dance for every spare dime
and then end up homeless
can't afford room and board
ain't got no precious lil "friends".
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hypochondria
muchausens syndrome
opposite of being in denial
yeah every time i get a symptom, keep googling it. pick the most fascinating diagnosis.
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hypochondria
muchausens syndrome
opposite of being in denial
yeah every time i get a symptom, keep googling it. pick the most fascinating diagnosis.
I have hypochondria.
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hypochondria
muchausens syndrome
opposite of being in denial
yeah every time i get a symptom, keep googling it. pick the most fascinating diagnosis.
I have hypochondria.
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Likewise ShortFatbalduglyman does too
Munchausen's syndrome by proxy
Google "Kaiser symptoms checker"
That way you know which symptoms to ignore and which symptoms to attend to
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Distraction always helps with anxiety in my case as well .
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