Suicidal thoughts getting worse

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18 Aug 2017, 8:54 pm

My suicidal thoughts are getting worse not better. My psychiatrist felt that Xanax would help. I am currently on wellbutrin. I have never tried anxiety medication.

I'm worried because it is a controlled substance. But I also fear if nothing changes I may end up having to hospitalize myself.

I have no doubt in my mind that of I attempted I would succeed. I don't want to do that to my family but the situation is escalating. My suicidal episodes are getting more painful and more intense. I don't know what to do. What happens if I'm hospitalized? Will I lose my job? What will the medical bills look like? What if it doesn't even help me?

Everything just seems hopeless. I want to be better. I don't know how to conquer my depression. :cry: :| :( :cry:


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18 Aug 2017, 9:54 pm

Have you recently started taking those medications? When I started taking prozac, right at the beginning I started having more suicidal thoughts. It could be a temporary side effect, I don't know.

What I do know is if you were to commit suicide I won't be able to brighten your day with funny comments! :(


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18 Aug 2017, 10:18 pm

AquaineBay wrote:
Have you recently started taking those medications? When I started taking prozac, right at the beginning I started having more suicidal thoughts. It could be a temporary side effect, I don't know.

What I do know is if you were to commit suicide I won't be able to brighten your day with funny comments! :(


I started taking them about a month ago so yes sort of new? I was told I might experience side effects for a couple of weeks. I wonder if I should try to wait it out? *Sigh* I'm tired of feeling like crap. My husband is really stressed out by it too. He puts on a tough face but I know it makes him physically ill with worry which is why I started taking some of my episodes to this forum to try to give him a break so he can have a moment of peace.


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18 Aug 2017, 10:52 pm

For me it took like 2 to 3 weeks(maybe a little more, don't remember exactly.) for the thoughts to subside. Now they come back very occasionally, but I know medicines work on different people differently. If it were me I would either try my best to hold out for another month or maybe call the doctor and ask if there is possibly a general length the side effects is suppose to last.

Suicide is not the answer though. Always remember you have a loving husband that would be very sad to see you go, you must fight it, if not for yourself, then for him!


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20 Aug 2017, 3:49 pm

Xanex for depression? Bloody hell, they dont like giving it to anybody in the UK its horrible coming off it.


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20 Aug 2017, 5:16 pm

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Xanex for depression? Bloody hell, they dont like giving it to anybody in the UK its horrible coming off it.


I hate to say it but I trust the UKs and Canada's judgement before my own country's. The USA doesn't like to admit to their mistakes or learn from others. A very dangerous form of pridefulness.

I probably won't try the Xanax I that case. Perhaps ill ask if there's something more mild.


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20 Aug 2017, 6:35 pm

I know most antidepressants take 4-6 weeks before you start to see the full benefits (yours could take longer I've not heard of that one). I suppose you could wait another week or so if you wanted but if I told my GP I was having increased thoughts of suicide while on medication im sure they would quickly and safely swap me to an alternative and give you therapy.

I don't know much about Benzos their not often given out here and sometimes you can only get them on a private prescription due to the high potential for dependence and addiction to them. I know they take effect much quicker though.

Unfortunately being the other side of the pond I won't know what the costs and impact on your job would be. It would be free for me, and the job would depend on the type of contract I have and how long I've been there for.

I dont know what crisis hotlines - suicide helplines you have in America but if their even half as good as the one in the UK their deffo worth a go if you need imediate help.

I wish you all the best and stay strong.