Sarahsmith wrote:
Not in a row. And I know its gross. After doing damage to my heart area after a suicide attempt my abdomen muscles are barely there. So in other words I cant hold my poop in very well. I have to rush to the bathroom in the morning. This time it was caused by moms chilli. I guess thats something I cant eat. Also I cant eat fried chicken because that makes me s**t myself.
I imagine as I get older this will be a problem. Its already a problem now. When it gets to that point Im going to a group home where they can provide adult diapers. I cant afford them on my own. To anyone considering suicide I dont recommend it. If you fail chances are your body will be f****d up because of it. Hold on. You will die soon enough of old age as life is short.
Well I don't want to minimize your suffering or anything...but damage to ones heart area doesn't really seem tied to a lack of abdomen muscles or problems with them working. Have you seen a doctor about this? If not I'd advise doing so as the pooping issue may be entirely unrelated to past heart damage and there may be a treatment to alleviate it.
Even if you did attempt suicide in the past doesn't make you any less deserving of medical care than anyone else...so yeah I'd say go get it checked out, could be treatable.
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