What do you want to do? Nothing.
I have thought the same thing many times as you do, blueghost.
I want to have a job so I can earn my own money, but I have too much bad experience in my bag to cope with the smallest little thing that can appear on a new job. A harsh voice, a angry, irritated person, difficulties to understand what someone means and more, that makes me just want to run home. To me, regular jobs make me very anxious, I think the only way to cope is to find a really good medication and a very few hours to be there. But it´s easier said then done.
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Beauty is fleeting, but a rent-controlled apartment overlooking the city is forever
gee_dee
Yellow-bellied Woodpecker
Joined: 3 Apr 2013
Age: 39
Gender: Female
Posts: 67
Location: everywhere
Unfortunately, I'm genuinely starting to want to do nothing with my life other than bum around, after years and years and years of trying my hardest to achieve something, namely a career of some kind. I'm just burnt out and want to stop caring for a change. I've still got just barely enough of a sense of FOMO (fear of missing out) to drive me to try to keep track on social media of what I feel like I should be doing, comparing myself to what others are doing, but I'm starting to ignore even that increasingly, because it does nothing but get me down.
I wonder if it's a type of self-imposed Stockholm Syndrome, as in I might as well enjoy my long stretches of chronic unemployment, and rejection from social and even volunteering opportunities, if these things are going to be forced upon me.
Gee dee
Numerous paying jobs, unpaid internships, and volunteer jobs have rejected me
Even things like volunteering at the senior center, and animal rights campaign
Maybe you should not compare yourself to someone else, because everyone has a different situation
Having said that, I compare myself to others constantly
And I find myself too visually ugly, gravitationally fat, academically stupid, vocationally incompetent, socially awkward
But "life goes on"
My older sister is a medical doctor
When I was young my precious lil "parents" used to compare me to her, and other smart Chinese children, a lot
At some point, to gave up
If success means medical doctor and failure means everything else, then why waste energy.
Effort
Failure