Nickchick wrote:
K_Kelly wrote:
(I typed "G-D" because this isn't PPR, but it's a strong emotional venting anyway)
I know a lot of atheists are on WP, but I hope I get hugs or support, besides I'm not preaching nothin'.
For ten years, I struggled with faith and resentment that driven up my frustration and anxieties. I have so many problems accepting God's will for on Earth and in eternity, I have almost walked completely away. I feel so disillusioned and shaken by it.
It's the one natural desire that I may never get to have, even for eternity. A complete experience with the opposite sex...any sexual intimacy, physical closeness, etc. Why is wanting to look at other women or having desire "evil" (presumably, especially for guys) in God's eyes? Why has he betrayed my heart by saying that once I get to Heaven when I die, I will be only spirit and have no desire to do anything other than only praising God for eternity? I also don't like hearing that Paul in the Bible had lamented about marriage being only for the week.
Why did I feel shattered if God's "love" is supposed to be so strong? Why can't Christians understand or be more open minded to people's struggles, like being lonely for me?
Why should I show a God that was supposed to create me even the slightest bit of RESPECT? I'm angry of all the years I was taught that certain things were because I needed to "have faith"?
I understand. I'm an agnostic theist but I have a problem with Christianity esp since it is the religion I am the most familiar with. For me the worst part of it is if God really loved me why would he let so many people step all over me to the point I experience long term depression? The religious person would tell me well he can't mess with free will but isn't that messing with mine when the hardships I have faced often control my life?
I understand you can't have light without dark but sometimes it's just too much dark.
The only thing I can tell you is forget all that..believe in your own version of a creator. It can be hard because I know you can't force yourself to believe something you just don't but there is always that possibility that the creator is only a slightly more powerful version of us. That's how I try to think of it. It doesn't always work but sometimes it does. You have to really hang onto it.
As far as your concerns with it, just think of it this way if God didn't want you to act on your desires then why would we have them? I guess you could say well because he's a sadistic b***h but would a sadistic creature be able to have good people in the world at all? That's what someone else told me and it kinda makes sense. You have to be good to know good.
Also, I wanted to go off and say this.
I am particularly mad at God sometimes because I think Western civilization is still kind of doomed. I'm not really a political radical, I'm mainly Libertarian conservative. But it really does seem that we are on the thin thread of collapse.
I feel that man's effort to try their best to change things for the better aren't helping as significantly as people wanted. Sure, some who agree with me about the state of western society say that we need to pray to God, but I think it's futile. I wish they would realize an alternative to their only one doctrine for once.
I wish I was growing up when we still had hope for western civilization and some things were still okay. But I feel so much doom anxiety and racing thoughts sometimes even when I'm not actively feeling in a bad mood.
Because of what I said above, I'm surprised that most people are still willing to wake up every day to something new. Of course, those with more progressive politics will never understand or agree. It just adds to my doom feelings.
These all stem from another thing too..
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Wouldn't it be cool to be both man and woman?
02 Nov 2017, 5:04 pm
If the priest/vicar is strong in their faith they would have no need to do something like this, as it indicates, in my opinion, only that they do not have an answer.
